the end

my blog is officially dead.. no point coming to visit my blog anymore.. i doubt i'll be posting anything for a long long long long time.. the only reason i'm keeping this blog open to to visit others' blog..

so this is the end of this blog..i might post something but it'll be far and few between..or is it few and far between..

solitaire

finally my internet connection is stable after 1 week of hell.. shitty streamyx can go burn in hell lah.. konan wanna become first world country..

gonna have holidays starting next week.. can't bloody wait.. 2 weeks of freedom minus the 4 days i'll be spending in supercamp.. the downside is i'll have plenty to do starting with my esl draft.. the week right after my holidays is shitty though.. 2 days of math DI plus a math quiz not to forget the due date for my esl draft.. as much as holidays is here i'll have lots to work on..

it's already the month of MAY.. it's already two months since i've been in Taylor's.. everything's been good.. lecturers are much more fun to the extend they can say "i'm too hot to handle".. even though i have longer hours but i'm having much more fun compared to my time in HELP.. so in conclusion HELP really does sucks in a way lah.. sucks pretty badly too..

nothing much to update about.. quite lifeless now..hopefully the holidays will be fun..

still going through the phase..damn i hate these confusing thoughts and the over-thinking-ness of me.. why can't i just be more initiative..

papercut

i had the best damn dimsum EVER this morning.. since today is mother's day, my elder bro brought the whole family to this place called restaurant jin xuan hong kong.. at 1st we went to the Uptown branch but it was so packed so my bro took us to another one near Atria.. the line was WAY longer than the line in Uptown so my bro went back to the one in Uptown.. we waited a while before we got a table there.. the dimsums there were AMAZING.. usually i'm not really fussy about food but this shop's dimsum was seriously damn good..way better than all the other big dimsum places that i've been too.. the best plate was of course their SIEWMAI which has the diameter of a 50sen coin if not even bigger than that and it tastes REALLY GOOD.. but the price is really expensive too.. the bill was 100 bucks.. 100 bucks for breakfast.. not very typical of my family..

so i went back to chs thrice this week.. twice on thursday and once on friday cause it was sports day.. it was just the same as last year with all the preparation and stuff.. only that this year i noticed there was significantly less people who stayed back to help the deco and stuff.. however they still got their job done and khemah was very nicely done.. much better than last year's.. and this year purple house got CHAMPION overall.. i'm very proud of them with all the effort they put into everything they do.. they beat us fair and square..

college has been all right so far..in about 2 weeks i'll have my semester break for 2 weeks.. technically it's only 1 week since the 1st week i'm gonna have LAN classes.. 1 whole bloody week of LAN.. hopefully i'll get a teacher who doesn't give a damn about attendance so i can miss classes easier.. assignments and test and coming thick and fast even though it's still early stages but the workload is steadily becoming heavier.. however i'm still not feeling the hectic-ness just yet.. having said that it's not something i'm looking forward to..

oh yeah went clubbing for the 1st time the night before Labour's Day.. it was a cool experience but i definitely didn't enjoy it as much as i would have liked since i can't drink too much or i can't get too high as i have to drive back later that night.. being sober has it's advantage though cause you can remember everything that happens and you can watch all the weird and funny happenings in the club.. drunk people falling down, dramas in the toilets, people making out..

i'm going through this phase now.. as much as i don't like it i know it's gonna happen after that.. the next few days will be tough for me but i'll have to struggle through it.. hopefully my confusions will clear up soon..

*ps* I DROVE MY BRO'S CAR JUST NOW AND IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!!

shit driver award

i got myself into another accident today..it's my 2nd one in a few months.. feeling kinda shitty about it.. it's like i know this accident is coming sooner or later by the way i was driving.. i had this nagging feeling if i don't change my driving style i'll get into one of these accidents but i still drove like an asshole and now i got my car banged up.. hopefully it's still repairable.. so now i'm feeling like the world's worst driving.. shit driver award goes to me man..

long story short i couldn't brake in time and i banged some lady's myvi.. her rear bumper had some scratches and her sensors came off other than that it was okay..at 1st i thought my car was in even better shape as it didn't seem to have any extra dents or scratches.. after my bro helped me settle with the lady i drove back thinking nothing was wrong.. after less than 2 minutes into my drive i noticed the sound of my engine wasn't right and i realised my temperature meter was hitting the H part so i know something was very wrong.. i quickly called my mom to tell her i'll be going to the workshop and i drove the car as carefully as possible.. when i reached the workshop the engine somehow wouldn't shut down so the mechanic manually turned it off..when he popped the hood steam was coming from the radiator..my engine was overheated like crazy.. he said he needs at least 3 days to repair it.. even though he's been working on this old Toyota Starlet for so many years from the tone of his voice i can tell he's not really confident on fixing it.. he said something like "if it's fixable then i'll fix but the parts are really hard to find".. so fingers crossed i'll still have a car to drive

while waiting for my mom to come the mechanic jokingly said "so it's time to change car huh" and i was like "yeah maybe".. i mean i don't mind driving this car but it's really starting to feel unsafe.. of course having a newer car will always be better since it's much safer but i'm just so used to driving my Starlet.. even though it sounds rather corny but i'm rather attached to the car..feels like it's part of me.. so i'm rather undecided should i ask my dad for a new car or stick with the old one if it's fixable.. i don't mind having a 2nd hand car as long as it's nice and easy to drive and of course it's a manual car.. but then again financial issues i guess..i wouldn't wanna burden my dad..

so for now i don't have a car..going to college and coming back will be a hassle since i'm used to driving here everyday.. i'm seriously wishing the best for my car..

lifelessness

i'm losing my blogging mojo

i've got nothing to blog about

the past few post was also rather lame

it shows my life is rather dull and unproductive

so it made me wonder

should i get myself my other half??

to make my life better??

to fill the boredom in my current life??

to make myself feel better??

why do i think that??

cause my class almost everyone got theirs

makes me feel rather left out

but then i continue thinking

do i want to find my other half now just because of my classmates??

or cause i want one??

but at then end of the day thinking of such things is a waste of my time

because

i'm not interested in anyone

no one is interested in me

i'm not interested in making someone show interest in me

i don't have the looks or the personality to make people want to know me

or maybe i have just issues with having a girlfriend

cause all my previous crushes and relationships ended VERY VERY sadly for me

they broke my heart

they crushed my soul

they made me ball-ess

they made my life miserable at times

i don't want such misery

that's why i chose to stay single

but am i gonna stay single for the rest of my life?

cause i'm afraid that my fragile heart would shatter into a million pieces again?

or would i go get my balls back

to go get a girlfriend

i have no idea

all i know is

i don't mind knowing girls

but i've became a pussy when it comes to getting to know them better

cause i'm afraid

i'm always afraid

this fear will never go away

people always say if you don't try you'll never know

but if you tried so hard and put in so much effort and yet you still got rejected??

it hurts

it hurts damn bloody bad

i know what it felt like

so then what's the point of trying??

just to get your heart broken??

so what should i do about this fear??






sorry for boring you guys with this post..it wasn't meant to be an emo post but one thing led to another..

tyre change

my manhood has just gone up another level.. after changing car battery the other day, today i changed tyre of a car..proton perdana to be exact.. it was much harder than i anticipated because i remember seeing a family friend changing his car's tyre and it didn't look that hard.. me and ah neh spend quite a long time changing the tyre but in the end we got it done with some help from 2 bus drivers.. they were kind enough to help us out..

it's already a month since i switched to Taylor's.. time really does fly now a days.. i still remember during primary school thinking why days pass so slow but now weeks fly by rather quickly.. one by one friends start leaving us and although new friends are fun but old friends are the ones that we forged a strong bond with.. hopefully when they're studying abroad they won't forget us..

again..appreciate what we have..try not to have any regrets

illegal

i just realised something really fucked up..i've been driving my car with an expired road tax for more than a month.. my car's road tax expired on the 9th of March.. today is 17th of April edi.. really lucky i'm not caught..gonna change it 1st thing in the morning..