driving lesson no.2

I FREAKING SUCK AT DRIVING!!!

i lost count the number of times my engine died on me.. way worst than my 1st lesson..now i know what my problem really is..don't know how to adjust clutch and accelerator while UPHILL.. the rest of shit i know..just that part..

i hate myself.. i really do.. now i know why people hate manual..

recap of the week

another holiday has gone past and i've done little studying other than the chemistry revision i did in the 30 hour famine..

Monday..
went to High School Musical on Ice with Sonia, Astin and sonia's friend Emily(i think..can't recall her name all of a sudden).. the skating was nice and basketball on ice was funny especially the game winning shot but the skaters are way too old to be high school-ers and all the conversations were pre-recorded and the songs were the exact same ones from the movie.. even 3 year old's would the disappointed with it..

Tuesday..
had my 1st driving lesson and it was really cool.. driving is like so natural to me.. i think i did quite well except the part which i'm suppose to smoothly release the clutch and step on the accelerator when i'm moving from a stationary position..my mom says it's not a problem since it's every new driver's problem..it gets better over time and experience..

then in the evening went to The Curve to celebrate Wei Jun's farewell(he's leaving on the 6th but he'll be back during winter) watched wall E which was suppose to be sad but it ended up being a comedy for me.. then had our dinner at laundry eating italiannis's food.. after food we had Blue Margarita and it was kinda good.. i wouldn't mind drinking now since that day i realised i've got a pretty good alcohol tolerance level.. 5 glass of it and i don't feel a thing.. unlike the Brians..

wednesday..
nothing to report..had double tuition that's all

thursday..
pretty much the same..had triple tuition but it was fine..kasturi mah 1.10 hours per session..

friday..
usual friday..tuition in the evening..

saturday and sunday..
went to my 1st ever 30 hour famine and i don't think it'll be my last.. overall the experience was really good and i've meet a gang of great new friends.. a big thanks to Zhen my group leader for being such a good sport and to the rest of the group Satya,Malene,Vicky,Anthony and Ee Leng for making the famine such a great time..learned a new game called Mafia and a new word KAWABANGGA!!! something else happened there which i won't tell out just so Li Chung won't be "jokingly" dulan and pissed.. it was a shocker for me..that's all i'm saying..

sorry no pics since i have no camera.. all the pic is with Li Chung and he'll be geting the other photos from the group as well..

that's pretty much my holiday.. anyone going to the Merdeka Countdown??

tagged..again..during May

totally didn't know i was tagged before..this one was during May..and i'm doing this to please Jessie

1) what do you want most now?
to have the will to freaking study for trials and SPM and fast fast start driving since i have my L now..

2) who is person you trust most?
me myself and I

3) are you in love?
i guess not..i hope not..maybe after SPM

4) if you have a dream come true, what is it?
just one?? i ahve many dreams you know

5)do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes i do and i've seen rainbows without rain

6)what's your goal for this year?
score as many A's as i can for SPM.. best be straight A's

7) do you believe in eternity?
what does that mean?

8) have you ever broken a person's heart that he/she wanna commit suicide?
i don't recall doing such thing but i sure hope i didn't do it indirectly

9) what feeling do you love most?
WINNING!! i'm damn kiasu and the feeling of accomplishment

10) what are your requirements for your other half?
fun, loving, outgoing and loyal

11) what kinda feelings do you hate most?
LOSING!! being betrayed and treated unfairly

12) do you cherish every friendship of yours?
i know the ones that i cherish most..

13) what do you want to do in the future?
be the most prominent special agent in FBI..maybe leader of SWAT

14) what is the most important thing in your life?
family's and friend's love and support

15) what do you feel last night?
i've forgotten

16) who do you hope to be always there for you?
my mom dad and sis and certain friends(not gonna name names just in case)

17) when do you think the world will end?
i know when my world will end.. when i pass away

18) the world ends tomorrow, what will you do?
spend the last moments with my family and most cherished friends..

19) what do you think of the person who tagged you?
NO COMMENT!!!

20) what do you want to know right now?
who i really am..

KISS MY ARSE NS!!

I'M NOT CHOSEN FOR THE STUPIDEST PROGRAM ON EARTH!!

bad news is i finished my mint choc chip last night..craving for more..gonna buy 1/2 gallon the next time..

tagged..

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
1st reaction will be asking her why.. then i'll go emo and be pissed off at myself for failing in a relationship before moving on..

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
short term..score for SPM.. long term.. living a rich, happy and healthy life with a great family.. family is important in life

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
never thought about it.. i wouldn't mind outdoor weddings like garden or beach wedding i guess.. (nearly went to a garden wedding in Cameron but my cousin changed plan *she married a filthy rich dude*)

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
i won't say that i'm confused i just don't know what does the future hold for me.. i pretty much have everything planned until uni unless something changes..

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
again never really give it much thought but a simple, happy-go-lucky girl who would love me unconditionally.. someone that i can be myself when i'm with her and someone that loves me for who i am(even my flaws and weaknesses).. as long as she's not too bad looking then everything will be fine..oh yeah and LOYAL..

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
both.. it won't feel right if it's just one of these..

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
it really depends on the situation.. if it's just one-way then i'll have to consider letting her go but if there's a chance then i'll wait.. possible for a long time..

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
sincerely hope that she is happy with whoever she's with.. no point trying to get her if she's attached..

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
my brothers both older and younger..the fact that i'm not studying.. my ankle..and my confusion..

#10. Is being tagged fun?
this is my first.. feeling neutral about it..

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
i'll be 27 by then.. having a stable and well-paid job and getting ready to be married and have children..(my plan is to get married by 28 and have my 1st child by at least 30)

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
family and friends.. can't live without them both..

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
no comment

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
i don't think i wanna get married if i'm poor since i won't be able to provide a good living environment for my family..

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
snooze my alarm and go back to sleep for another 9 minutes..

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
if it's the right one then of course but how would we know which relationship is the right one..

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i won't pick until my feelings are clear..

#18. What type of friends do you like?
fun and good listeners who will always have my back when i need them and won't bug me to tell them stuff..

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
backstabbers(is this a real word?)..i would love to say hypocrites but i think i'm one myself..someone who talks bad about me behind my back.. at least have the balls to say it in front of me but i can't promise that i won't punch you..

DULAN!!!

I DAMN FUCKING DULAN!!!

it's god damn bloody obvious my comp sucks terribly but can't you fucking assholes leave my comp alone!! it's terrible that my comp has less than 20GB of memory, the fucking screen can't work properly and that it's full of useless stuff so why the fuck you guys still wanna use it?? you guys have a comp.. FUCKING USE IT!! if it's not working up to your fucking standard then FUCKING FIX IT!! don't just fucking blaming that others spoilt it then they should fix it.. IT'S YOURS DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!! i fucking had it with you guys constantly using my comp.. this is fucking why i want a fucking laptop to begin with..

anyway i ran the Adidas King of the Road marathon today which was great.. i never had a work out like this in such a long time.. my whole running vest was full of sweat and my ankle feels great.. it's just that it's still slightly swollen and it hurts a bit when i turn it so i'm still taking it easy(which is why i'm not fucking playing tomorrow).. but running 7km was fun.. my run was quite stop go since i jog and walk jog and walk which actually isn't a good thing to do.. at 1st i was running with Kah Joon but i couldn't keep up with him so he got away from me and i ended 40 runners behind him at the finish.. it was refreshing and i can't wait for the next marathon which i have no idea what event it may be..

trial is coming up.. gonna start working hard.. still can't push myself to study.. i have the urge but i'm not taking action.. damn sad.. i'm screwed..

fuck my ankle

I BLOODY FUCKING HATE GETTING INJURED!!

played captain ball today and sprained my ankle.. it got swollen when i got home and after tuition it was quite terrible so i went to physiotherapist("tit da" in another words).. the dude is very good.. all thanks to wei jun's mom who introduce his clinic to my mom and now everyone in the family looks for him.. it was a really really painful experience and i'm quite sure i did alright.. my mom asked me after the session if it was painful i was like WTF?? she said i looked calm so i'm guessing my ability to not show emotions in my face has gone up another level.. it's so damn bloody painful i'm guessing some guys who doesn't have balls would cry over the pain.. thank god i'm a man..

now i can't run in the Adidas King of The Road marathon which is kinda disappointing cause i really wanna try running 7-8KM.. and i might not be able to play street soccer on monday.. it all depends on the swelling on my ankle.. the therapist says it takes up to a week or 2 so i'm taking a risk if i play on monday.. it all depends on me..

moral of the story?? fucking tie sports shoe(basketball shoe, futsal shoes, boot etc) as bloody tight as possible.. tight better than loose cause you won't "aw cai" that easily..

Happy Birthday Li Chung

A BIG BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUT TO VICTOR GOH LI CHUNG!!!(the one on the right)

today didn't start well at all..1st had a argument with my mom then dulan-ed until i saw my grandpa in hospital..his prostate swelled so he had to have a small operation which cost about RM8000++.. my dad has a video of the operation which is quite cool.. having thoughts of being a surgeon now.. i don't want to talk about the procedures cause it'll make you guys sick to your stomach..

after visiting my grandpa i went to 1u to celebrate Li Chung's birthday.. me, him and ah neh watch The Mummy which was kind of good..it wasn't as bad as i thought it might be.. the best characters are the main character's brother in law and his pilot friend.. they made the movie worthwhile.. after that met up with brianC and we went for lunch in a place called Pasta Zanmai..the food was good and the price was reasonable.. during the meal we found out wei ren was not coming to 1u so we chat and chat and chat and chat.. the four of us had "man talk" session(about an hour and a half).. only brianC wasn't opening up.. he "claims" that he wasn't comfortable talking with ah neh around which i won't blame him.. brianC said i changed and Li Chung backed him up.. i don't feel much of a change at all honestly speaking.. so is the change good or bad?? i got to know more about Li Chung's historiessssss(seriously a lot of shit) since we really opened up.. but we didn't like cry or did anything like that.. overall it was a cool experience.. i talked very little which was good cause i wasn't in the mood to open up.. just told them who the 2nd girl was.. at 1st they were totally clueless but after further explanation they were like "OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!".. so yeah i think it kind of shocked them??
personally i think i'm half lying to them(sorry guys).. i told them "A" but i'm not even sure of that myself.. i'm trying to ignore it since trials and SPM is coming real soon and i know i won't have the time to dwell on it but it's really bugging me for now.. so how??

anyway i found a few quotes which is kind of cool..
"winning doesn't mean always being 1st, winning means your doing better than you've done before" that's for you ah neh..
"Never break four thigns in life - Trust,Promise,Relation and Heartbecause when they break they don't make noise but pains a lot"
"everyone thinks of changing the world but never thought of changing himself"

THE BEST QUOTE
"if you win you need not explain, but if you lose you should not be there to explain" by Hitler which is probably why he commited suicide..

i'm addicted to transylvania and obviously by McFly..actually McFly as a whole.. i hope we can perform the songs one day.. anyone having an event which my band can perform?? we're really really good..no kidding..