V-Day

well yesterday was valentine's day.. for those who spent it alone, there's nothing wrong with it.. don't go emo-ing at a corner of your room or drown yourself in chocolate.. and it's not SINGLE AWARENESS DAY either since we don't need valentine's to know that we're single.. how did i spend my valentine's?? by going back to my old school to stone and also to MV with a bunch of friends to spend a group valentine.. the good thing about going back to school is that Pn.Hoon said i YING JUN SIAO SA(it means handsome if you guys don't know chinese) but overall the trip back to school was a total waste of time..

so KP,xiauyen, shueze, weiseong, weijie, fiona and i went to MV initially wanted to watch a movie, how ever seeing the que for tickets we dropped the idea.. had lunch at Domino's which was a total rip-off seeing as how small the pizza was and that they served us SHIT(refer to KP's blog).. then we had dessert at somewhere i don't know but it's just outside QQ cut.. saw A LOT of lesbian couples and un-dignified man(males who walk around carrying their girl's handbag no matter how feminine or how girly the bag is) and KP was so into a girl's ass he didn't notice we weren't walking behind him until perhaps 50meters later..

and i'm not continuing my studies in HELP after i finish my foundation programme.. why?? cause i find the place depressing and that HELP's marketing degree is not strong if i were to use it to apply for jobs.. i'm most likely going to MonashU or Taylor's Business School..

Mid-terms coming up soon.. and somehow i'm not really anxious about it.. is something wrong with me?

NEW TYRES!!

my dad just bought 4 BRAND NEW TYRES for my old Toyota Starlet.. just so you know the car is 25 years old this year.. i can't wait to drive my car tomorrow..

that night when i fetched ee lynn home after astin's party somehow we talked about me going to races and being a racer when my bro feels that i'm ready and up to the challenge and decides brings me to races.. after the talk it made me wonder if i really wanna go and race?? i know i have a passion for racing deep in my heart but after sitting in my brother's car that day and realising that he was the type of driver who drives around like a maniac(but you can't deny he's always in control) i kept thinking to myself "will i become like him??" what if i started racing and become like him.. i'm not saying he's a bad driver, in fact he is a great driver.. but i just don't want to start driving around like a maniac, cutting in and out of lanes at will.. i want to race, i really do but if i become a maniac driver, is it worth it??

and now i realise something.. after years of being single i now have no more balls.. i saw 2 chicks in 2 different classes and yet i haven't got the balls to talk to anyone of them..my balls shrank to the point i rather not know them and just see them few times a week.. damn sad shit huh..

thats my life now..balless and loner..

one month on

i bloody hate my finite maths teacher.. i hate him more than i hate any other teachers in my life.. he's just as bad and as terrible as being a teacher in CHS.. those useless teachers lah.. he's teaching us as if we're 5 year old kids and he is not treating us like adults or grown ups at all.. the only good thing is that i'm only gonna see him for another 9 weeks and continue life in HELP without him..

so one month into college life and the only thing i have to say it's much more free compared to chs.. maybe not so for taylor's ppl lah but my foundation seriously damn free.. even my schedule is so damn free.. my assignments are always given perhaps 2,3 weeks in advance so we do have time to finish it and do it properly.. the only thing i have against HELP is friends i guess.. i see taylor's everyone berkawan-kawan so quickly but here it's still very "in my own world" type of feel..

having quizzes over the next week..hopefully and do well and prepare well for my mid-terms which is on the last week of Feb.. the shitty part is that i can't make it to the Golden Child's project with rotaract cause it's being held over the weekend before my finals..damn sad shit..

Condolences

i can't believe my 1st post after 10 days is a rather sad and grim post.. this morning i recieved a msg which i've been dreading for quite some time.. our dearest friend Yee Sook passed away just this morning.. a sad news coming so near to CNY.. i feel really sad for his family for losing a good and happy family member so close to the CNY celebration..

Personally i dont know Yee Sook well at all..we were just hi bye friends but i can tell from how others talked about him he was a great friend to have.. i really admire his dancing skills and determination as well.. i still remembered during the scout's campfire night we screwed up his music and yet he danced on as if nothing happened and he wanted to get out there again just to show what he can really do with his dance team.. that is a real testemant of his passion for dancing..

i still remember when i last visited him which was 2 weeks ago.. although he didn't look as bad as i thought he would be, i was still very shocked at his apearance.. he wasn't bubbly or cheerful as i known him to be.. by the look of things i was ready for the worst.. but at then end of the day.. why him?? i can think of loads of people who deserves such punishment other than him..he was kind and cheerful.. always has a smile on his face.. it's just too hard to stomach it..

Yee Sook was a great man and ultimately a great friend.. i hope that you rest in peace and that which ever god you pray to protect you from harm and danger in your afterlife.. to Yee Sook..

missing my black hair

as much as i like my current hair-colour.. i really really miss my black hair.. now a days i wake up,look at my hair and go "haiz gold hair again".. yeah that pretty much sums up how i feel about my hair now.. I WANT MY BLACK HAIR BACK!! but i don't want to shave hahahahahahahah.. i'm planning to trim it bacause the length is killing me..not to say it's long but i just don't like my current hair.. especially the god-damn fringe..can't stop poking my eyes.. damn bloody dulan edi.. slightly new hair for chinese new year i guess..

college has been gradually getting better.. i'm starting to get used to the environment and stuff.. now i have this Malaysian Indian-German dude as my lab partner in computing principle.. he's a cool guy and his name is Chris too hahahahaha..

i'm still missing my high school friends though..i don't know if there is a day when this feeling will go entirely away yet i don't want it to.. i still don't see myself in a gang with any of the people i've met so far in col and it's hard to gang up since we're always in different classes all the time.. for instance i saw this lenglui in computing principle tutorial but i'll most probably gonna see her only once a week since that's the only lesson which we are classmates.. how to get to know her better??

oh yeah i'm performing with my band "ice-cold morning" this Saturday at KDU for the leo club of SMK DU.. though i don't think any of you would go since we can't get tickets for you i hope you guys would support us from the heart.. that sounds really weird.. somehow i get this fantasy that Jien would somehow think we're a really good and potential band that he'll hook us up with some agent or stuff.. hopefully that will come true..

i still hope my col life will get better..

1st week in college

technically i finished my 1st week of college since i don't have classes on friday.. yes i DON'T HAVE any classes on friday unless there's a replacement class..

and i love my schedule.. this is why

Monday
8am to 9.30 am Finite Maths Lecture
9.30am to 11am Intermediate English Lecture

Tuesday
8am to 9.30am Intermediate English Lecture
10am to 12pm Computing Principle Lecture
12.30om to 2pm Finite Maths Lecture

Wednesday
8am to 9.30 am Intermediate English Tutorial
9.30am to 11am Computing Principle Tutorial
2pm to 4pm Computing Principle Lab (i can go back early if i finish early)

Thursday
9.30am to 11am Finite Maths Tutorial
11am to 12.30pm Study Skills class

Friday
EMPTY!! NO CLASS!! FREE!!


i realise the malaysian chinese in HELP speak chinese instead of english.. a bit surprising since i thought college is all about english.. other than that nothing much lah.. and i'm really grateful i don't need to sweat while walking between classes since the main block of HELP is fully air-conditioned.. unlike wisma HELP or KPD where you need to walk under the sun..

making new friends is another problem for me..i'm not really those sociable type of person so yeah until i still don't have any new friends..unless you count the ones i speak to during discussions in class which i dont know their name..

still missing my old friends.. i don't miss high school.. just my high school friends..i really hope we get to meet up regularly..

College

tomorrow is orientation day for me at HELP.. i'm taking foundation in art for my pre-u which looks like a good course for ppl like me since i don't like studying much but the shit side is all my friends are in A level.. can't do anything about it..make new friends i guess.. i seriuosly hope my course has chicks cause it'll be damn bloody sien without chicks around..

new school new environment new friends perhaps new life and hopefully new love..