after having some heart to heart talk with Cheryl on friday night i decided i need a break from my own life..i have to admit only after re-reading that conva i realise how fucked up i seemed to be..everything i said was really negative and it really just brings my morale down..the whole day i was feeling really off..so i decided on saturday i'm not gonna go jobweek (sorry Li Shawn) cause i seriously DO NOT feel well at all..i don't wanna transfer my negative energy to you guys..
so on saturday afternoon i went to 1u to watch IRON MAN and SPEED RACER..just me,myself and i(sounds familiar)!! it's like a guy day out but all by myself..IRON MAN was just as i expected..but the suit was really really cool..can't wait for the sequel..after that i watched SPEED RACER which was equally cool..i have to say i've never seen such a movie where humans are humans but everything else is animated at the same time..i spent a long time in the arcades too..just playing, playing and playing but i've only spent around 10 bucks there so to me it's time and money well spent..playing in the arcade, i just forget about everything else in the world..i enjoyed myself immensely and i actually finished the Advance level of Daytona with 15 seconds to spare.. i'm getting more and more pro edi..can't say the same for my pool skills..sucked pretty badly..
Gryffindor should change their mascot from a lion to IRON MAN..
my new favourite car..
i went looking for my colleagues too when i was in 1u..i haven't seen them in AGES and yet they did not changed one bit..i enjoyed chatting with them..the smile on their faces when they saw me was just amazing..it warms my heart..at 1st i just wanted to go there say hi then ciao but they are my family..at least they still treat me like a younger brother..Choy Yee was like the happiest to see me based on her reactions and immediately she noticed that i'm darker..and Sin Fei had to punch me after so many months..of course there's Vin who's gayness never stop amazes me..there's also Sky(yes he intro himself as Sky when we 1st met) who i think forgotten my name and just calls me lengzhai on that day..i had to go back the 2nd time since a few of them was having lunch at the time and also cause Siew Lian told me Bee Ling was saying just the other day "eh Yang kinda long never come visit us edi hor" so i HAD to at least say hi to her..so after SPEED RACER i went back and saw both Bee Ling and Mona..again they seemed really happy to see me..and also almost immediately they say that i'm darker..am i really that dark?? anyway Mona actually saw through me and asked if i had problems..at 1st she asked if i got relationships problem which was only half correct but not wanting to worry her i just denied..she said i looked rather grave as if i got into a fight with a close friend..it's moments like these that makes me cherish them more then ever..they made me realise that i'm not such a loser that i thought i am..the fact that i can bring smiles to their faces when they see me proofs that i'm not such a terrible guy..
after my day out,i realised that i've got to move on with life no matter what..at times i really wished i was back at SEED working and spending time with my colleagues but that's just not the way for me..the only reason they're there working cause they had no money to study..i also realised that if i start liking someone else then i'll need to be brave or in other words BE A MAN,MAKE BALLS FOR MYSELF(sounds wrong)..i thought liking *cough* was torture but THIS takes things to a whole new level..i'm just really confused now about my feelings..for both of them..
on another note
this is my 4th family (1st being my REAL family,2nd is my friends and 3rd is my colleagues)
PURPLE HOUSE!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS TILL DEATH!!
and i promise i'll be back for next year's Sports Day to help out as long as someone keeps me posted about it..by then i'll be able to drive too..
Sunday, May 11, 2008
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