Friday, June 29, 2007

My Cousin's Wedding

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Saturday, June 23, 2007

Endless Rain

I'm walking in the rain,
though everything seems to be hurting me for some reason.
There is only nothing.
Just kill me now ... as I roam forever.
Until I can forget your love.

To me sleep is a confusing, narcotic
that only quiets the beating heart.
All my love seems to flow from my body like a heart felt memory.
I keep my love for you to myself.

Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness,

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words.
Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...
until I can forget your love.

Endless rain, fall on my heart, in this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness.
Endless rain, let me stay a memory in your heart.
Let me take in your tears, take in your memories.

Kurenai

I could not to look back, you'd gone away from me
I felt my heartache, I was afraid of following you
when I was looking the shadows of the wall
I started running into the night to find the truth in me

in the crowded street you're standing all alone
the shadow of the days hide your heart
you are bringing down the heart of the night
keeping everything off

as if something gonna force you
now you're running into storm
can't you see I'm always on your mind
tell me why you leave me alone

when I was gonna be losing you on my mind
found my heart in soil
I'm looking back the days
these are gonna break my heart
but I can't never hold back

all of you in my memory is still shining in my heart
now you're wearing the mysterious lights
it keeps me sticking into my heart

my heart has been gonna dye deep red with all of pain
there's no one to cure my pain only without you
how I try to shout, how I try to run
there's nothing I can do
the wall hiding my heart is never broken again
how I try to break

oh! cry in deep red...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

NIAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

WAHLIAO!!I GOT MY NEW PHONE!!WOOHOO!!SYOKNESS!!


i thought i was never gonna get the phone..whenever i ask about my phone they'll surely tell me to wait and wait and wait..it seems to me that i'll never get a new phone for a long time..then today after school when we were about to reach home my sis asked me to call my mom and told me that we were going to buy the phone..i was kinda blur so i just did what i was told to do..when we were all going to ss2 only then i actually realised i'm getting a new phone..it was so cool..when my mom told the shop owner of the shop i had to buy a new phone cause i was robbed,he told us that his touch-screen DVD player that was installed into his Estima around a month ago was also robbed..damn kesian him..some more it happened right in front of him..the robbers locked up his fronts doors so they can take their time with the disassembling of the player..anyway my mom also needed to get a new phone..her last phone was totally destroyed after she accidentally ran over it cause she didn't realise that she dropped her phone*sigh*..she got herself a brand new Sony Ericsson K320 which is 380 bucks i think..she wanted a user friendly phone and me and my sis thought that the phone was good for my mom..

Me, on the other hand now owns a brand new Magnificent,Marvellous,MegaCHUN,Yeng,Cool (and the list of good terms go on) Sony Ericsson W610i!! YYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!
my phone is black at the front and orange at the back..i wanted the silver front black back but that colour wasn't available in AP..man i was so damn happy but then i just acted cool in front of my mom..don't wanna show her that how i felt.. as we were paying we realised that we were running short of cash..so my mom and sis decided to dump me there while they went to the ATM machine to get sum extra $$$$..the girl there was kind enough to show me some chun features of the phone which was really nice of her..then the shop owner's wife (i think) asked me about the robbery..i didn't like to talk about it but i decided to tell them everything..funnily they thought i lived in ss2 and was robbed in ss2..do i look like someone who lives in ss2?? Finally they came back..we paid and then we left..

after that we went to a jewellery store cause my cousin is getting married next week so my mom was buying a present for her..it took us nearly 45 minutes to choose her present..not us lah i didn't take part in it..finally we got her something which i was not sure of since i went back to the car and waited with the air-con on..man i'm gonna miss 2 days of school next week to attend the wedding..gonna get some cash hahahahahaha..i still remember i got 12 Sing dollars for just accompanying the bridegroom to the bride's house..hope i'll get more this time niahahahahahaha..

i really hope we get to perform for the school's anniversary..so what if it's not as big as last year's event..students are bored with just the dances or songs sang by groups..we're different from other performers..give us a chance..we'll prove it..

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Falling Apart

OMG after not listening to X-Japan for over 2 weeks i just can't take it anymore..they are just so good and yet they are not so famous around the world..then again i've notice a lot of people around the world only noticed them when watching youtube and all of them LOVE X-Japan..power huh..they are back but without Hide(Hideto Matsumoto) who is the most entertaining one in the band..unfortunately he passed away on 2nd May 1998 due to an accident cause he was drunk..anyway X-Japan is back together and they are paying tribute to Hide with a song called "without you" i think..i've heard that Yoshiki shortlisted around 10 guitarist to join the band..even if they found a guitarist who is skill-wise up to Hide's standard..that dude can never replace Hide's enthusiasm when performing..i really wanna go to Japan and watch them perform..they are one of the most influential bands in Japan.. i know some of u guys think that i'm crazy but that's just me..i really love X-Japan..

anyway our school exams were over on tuesday..CHS always has a way to make students pissed off..they had to drag the exams up to almost 5 weeks long including the holidays..i thought holidays were to let us rest after a semester of hard work and studying..how can CHS do this to us man..ruining the holiday mood cause we're all worried about the exams..why can't they just have the exams like 1 or 2 weeks after the holidays..at least we can have some peace during the holidays..or even better HAVE THE BLOODY SHITASS EXAMS BEFORE THE HOLIDAY!!!! i just got back my add maths and mod maths paper today together with my moral paper..i scored 20 for add maths..not bad knowing that i've only done 25 marks worth of questions..i got 57 for mod maths and 56 for moral..they are not too bad..around the marks i've expected..mr.tee already said that lessons resumes next week..wtf man we just finish our exams..can't he at least let us take some time off..this is serious torture man..i'll be getting most of my other results by the end off the week..hopefully i can get a good grade and purata..if not my mom's seriously gonna kill me..she trusted me that i'll study on my own during the holidays and i betrayed her trust..i'm feeling really really guilty now..i'm gonna work hard on the finals..i have to..it's the only way i can think of to clear the debt i owe my mom..

man i've been really messed up lately..being really really emo..i guess that's just life..and emo is part of it..i dunno what should i do..should i just let her go and move on or just do nothing and wait blindly..i really hate myself..i feel like a useless shit now..being so weak and vulnerable..i like her..i really do..but then so what if i like her..it's not like i can do anything about it..sometimes i just want it all to end..to feel nothing..to just be cold blooded and have no feelings for anything or anyone..i know that is just plain sick but i can't help it..my world is falling deeper and deeper and deeper into a tunnel and so far i can't see any light at the other end of the tunnel..why must human beings have such complicated feeling??

haizzz life is like that and i'll just have to accept it..there's no denying that i hate such life but then again to me acceptance is the 1st step towards freedom and salvation..

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Tired

i just came back from the Planet Shakers concert..it was my first time listening to their music and i really like it..it's quite chun for a band or organization to be preaching christianity(sorry if i say wrong lah)..it all started quite well with their songs and i was jumping with my friends brian,kai jie ,tian yuan,wei ren,sarah and i-ting..so fun jumping around singing with the band..all of a sudden the PA system broke down and only the lighting was still functioning so the band compromise and the drummer keep playing solo..DAMN CHUN..it was very entertaining..i bet some people will think it's part of the act..after the performance finish edi a really really cool dude started preaching..he was really really funny,told us jokes and made listening to him really really funny..i think he must have been an entertainer before..then there was this small kid beside i-ting and sarah which was like super disgusting..i heard him fart once or twice lah but sarah said he kept on farting a lot of times and something about digging his nose and sucking his finger gua..something like that lah..makes mi sick thinking about it..after the preaching usual lor they asked anyone who wanna accept Jesus into their life..after that Planet Shakers performed another 2 songs i think then it all ended..

we wanted to go mamak and yamcha but somehow we can't find transport..when we thought we found a solution to it surely somehow cannot work wan..at first we said wanna go ss2 wan but cannot..so in the end we went back brian's house..on the way away form the church we saw a mamak..it was walking distance only..damn shit wei we should hav just walk out..when we were in brian's house we were so darn bored we took pictures..tian yuan and kai jie was trying 2 fix brian's power ranger toy but in the end it was brian who fixed it..u people should have seen the way those 2 idiots fight for the toy..super childish..i used brian's comp to on9 and sarah was beside me using his sis's laptop and yet she's messaging me through msn..damn kacau right and she kept asking me what time my mom's gonna come which was getting quite annoying after a while..finally my mom came and we all went home happily ever after..

Planet Shakers really ROCK..you guys should listen to their songs if you don't mind their lyrics..






my pics from brian's house..

Thursday, June 14, 2007

who say my blog die..just one week never update only ma like that also consider die..you wanna die is it??

It's been a week liao i think since i lost post in the blog..I've been busy studying cause of the stupid exams..seriously man all the papers are super hard..the teachers like wanna kill or something..i don't even wanna talk about my add maths..sure,confirm,definitely 100% fail..physics also..stupid bro.john come out with all the definitions but so little calculations..I'm alright with chemistry since it's do-able but yet it is still quite hard..I'm really surprise with my moral..i can do almost all the question wei..skill edi leh..EST the usual can do..hopefully can get A1 this time..fuiyo today i had BC 2 and BI 2..shit wei the BC paper i thought we had until 10.25 to finish it so i slowly did it..i really took my time with the paper until suddenly at 10.05 DOREMON asked us 2 stop and i was like almost done but i haven't read the last question..i read it through and just wrote a few words so i won't leave any blank answers..but come to think about it i left another question blank which is the stupid ming ju question..the stupid gai su was damn freaking hard man..i couldn't find the point so i just wrote the few which i THINK is the point and finally there's the stupid story about a cat's name..it's original name is 'tiger cat' but each of the owner's friend gave it another name which is 'dragon cat','cloud cat','wind cat','wall cat' and 'mouse cat'..what a stupid story..then there was english..usually i would just finish it quickly,read it through another time then go sleep or talk with my friends..this time i was so out of focus..i couldn't just continue doing the paper..i have to stop and daydream a while before realising i still have to finish the paper..the literature questions were ok i guess since i still can do it..there's bloody chemistry paper 3 and BM paper 3 tomorrow and i have nothing to study..my chemistry papers are all gone while i never listen to my BM teacher in class..thank god my tuition teacher taught me some sastera stuff hopefully i can remember until tomorrow..

damn i love playing the song man it's just so good and enjoyable..too bad I'm really really really enjoying guitaring now..I'm having the time of my life playing all kinds of songs..this few days I've been mastering the lead guitar from the song I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance..my band is planning to perform this song during the school anniversary celebration..I'm not playing the solo part for this song..but i learned it anyway since it's so so so cool..i really really wanna jam again..come on guys why not jam on the saturday after the exams..23rd of June in the afternoon..oh yeah that's i-ting punya birthday..so Happy Early Birthday lah in case i forget on the day itself..damn man i just found out there is scratches under my electric guitar..damn sam tong now..but i want a new guitar..i want a guitar with 24-25 frets and it must be RED..i don't know why i guess I'm just into red guitars..fully red..but i don't think I'll get it also..too poor edi..i really hope we get to perform during the anniversary celebration cause the last time we performed for our mates it was sucky shit..only those who went to watch on the Jubilee Concert Night knows how good we were performing on stage with our red hair..

gonna end the post now..ciaozz

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Screw the day

what a day.. i'm SICK!! hell man i don't wanna be sick now..deng man the whole damn day no energy, kept on sneezing and sneezing and sneezing.. why must be sick..why can't we just be immune to every single disease in this freaking world.. i felt like sleeping early but since i'm feeling better i decided to blog about my sick day..pretty dumb hah..

well i actually woke up feeling quite ok..everything went downhill just before breakfast..more like brunch..anyway went i went home i just couldn't stop sneezing and sneezing and sneezing..hell i hate having a flu..it really does rob you away from your energy and enthusiasm..the whole freaking day i feel like just laying there and sleep but i can't cause i have to freaking study since exam so so so damn near..in the end i studied nothing much just a bit of chemistry..kinda regretted not copying all of the notes from Miss Wong cause now i can't freaking study..my notes were pure shit in a way..nothing in there is useful..now i have planned out everything for the rest of the weekend..tomorrow chemistry n physics then saturday add maths n sunday whatever that i can study..i still haven't start on my PJPK folio but i really don't care..screw the folio..don't even know what is the uses for it..

oh man i'm getting really emo recently..couldn't help it..and it is a freaking feeling that i so hate..makes mi feel weak and useless and hopeless i might as well go and die..now i understand why ppl hate to be emo..it just plain suck..how i wish i can be like last time..it's like the older i get the more vulnerable my heart is..i thought i should be stronger as i grow..deal with this kinda stuff with more authority..useless me..

today i actually get to read shue ze's blog and it was hilarious wei.. i wish i could have read it sooner but i don't know why i just can't get into his blog..he was describing his friends and i was in it..man he is so accurate bout me except the X-Japan part..how can you compare music to a mother..it's just so wrong..of course i love my mom more lah..and i must say what do u expect in a room which is slept in by boys who don't really care bout their room..we just don't care as long as the room has a bed which can be slept in and air-con..plus the underwears u found in the bed room aren't mine..sorry to disappoint you but they are from my 2 bros who are not as clean as me..aiyah everyone has a crush wan lah why wanna put there wor..trying to make me feel embarrassed meh..

well that was my day and how i felt for the day..can't believe i'm actually enjoying blogging..it is kinda fun..i have to admit it..

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Damn internet..






Sorry about the missing pictures..here it is..


My 1st Ever Post....WOOHOO!!

Wow I'm actually starting to blog. I have to say this is really surprising after all I've been telling others blogging is just a waste of time and effort. Now only have I realised blogging is actually to 'kill my time while online'. That is according to my dear friend Victor.

Well I'm currently not really enjoying my stupid holiday. Everyday thinking about the exams and yet I still haven't start my revision. This is stupid having exams before and after holidays, why can't they just have it before OR after the holidays. Stupid CHS, god damn stupid, useless and lousy exam system.

Anyway I went jamming just the other day. Damn I really enjoyed it. I really do miss it now that I've come to think of it, seriously can't wait to jam again with my band. They're really cool with Victor as our vocalist, Me and Brian as the guitarist, Peter playing the bass and of course pussy Wen Xiang on the drums.

These are some of the photos of our performance during the last year's Golden Jubilee concert.