again..don't care about the title

i don't know why the sudden emoness rush.. i just felt it and still feeling it..

looking back.. i've practically wasted 2 years waiting for something that's just never meant to be.. sometimes i wonder why i am the way i am.. it's not that i've never tried letting go.. i really did put a lot of effort in it and there was a period which it worked and i was so happy with things just the way it was.. then my old habit kicked in and the cycle started all over again.. it's really frustrating to begin with, i want to move on, i really do but there's just something that keeps pulling me back which really ruins me.. all the what ifs are killing me.. some advice me to let go and i couldn't agree more and yet i'm holding on to something which will never materialise.. i think the worst part is that even though she's never,not once remotely indicated that she'll be interested, somehow i keep giving myself false hope.. i must be one of the stupidest guy on earth i guess.. there are times which i don't know what i want.. her or to stay away from her..

college is coming up and i seriously hope i can move on by then..

early christmas dinner

just came back from Li Chung's house for early chirstmas dinner.. nothing much to shout about..had games of Jengga and GREAT i repeat GREAT dinner.. his family damn great cook..

then when Cheryl,John,Jie Yi and Jordan left, BrianC, ah neh, Wei Ren, KJ, Jia Cheng, Li Chung and I had chun emo session.. we listen to a lot a lot a lot of emo songs using JC's laptop.. it was less talking more listening to slow,emo,heartbreaking music but it was really good.. like therapy session.. we listen from around 11 i think until 12.30 or so..

somehow i think we should do this more often.. emo songs anyone??

PANGKOR

the pangkor trip was AWESOME..it has everything you want in a trip with a big group..

stuff that i learn during the trip
- if you can't fucking drink don't drink..all you'll do is embarrass yourself and create problems for everyone else
- SAD DRUNKS are hillarious
- i finally got tipsy so i know my limits now when it comes to drinking
- texas poker is a really fun game hahahahahha
- sitting by the beach in the dark is really nice.. listening to the waves is really soothing and relaxing.. no matter sitting alone or being with our partner.. doing this just brings you to your own care-free world..

i really want to blog about everything but i need chinese for it and there were too many incidents.. waste of time and energy..

FUCKING HYPOCRITES!!

i god damn fucking hate chee bye hypocrites.. who was the fucker who said i'm an idiot dlding shows when we can stream and watch it.. now the same fucker kacau me every week to fucking dl the show..chee bye you so smart go fucking stream lah what for dl.. asshole..

and i fucking wasted 65 bucks and my time and my energy..

terrible start to the week..

it's been boring ever since spm ended.. i've pretty much done nothing except finish shopping for my prom outfit..

i dyed my hair..i have no idea what's the exact colour since the stylist mixed the colours but i'm guessing it's goldish auburn?? i don't know but it really looks great in darker environment.. if i were to stand under the sun my hair will be like really bright which makes me look lala and makes my eyebrow really pop..now i look like a japanese punk or monkey king from journey to the west depending on how you look at my hair.. a shade too bright but it'll still good.. can't regret it now can i..

went to Taylor's open day.. i pretty much know what i want but my dad's really naggy and all.. it's his money afterall that pays for my education.. i don't want to study the malay background speaking but it's and easy subject which i can score to pull my grades up.. now it's between getting good grades or studying something which interest me more.. sucks to choose..

going to this charity dinner thingy tomorrow night..hope i'll enjoy it..

Memoir

my 5 year tenure as a catholic high school student has come to a close.. another chapter of my life ends while a new exciting one is taking shape(except this holiday since i'm slacking around at home doing nothing)

i still remember the 1st days of my CHS life.. sticking around john and wei jun since i still don't have any new friends but at least my days were better than wei jie's.. throughout my form 1 life i think my biggest regret was joining QM i guess.. thinking about it now i'm just no suited to be with that type of society(no offence)..i mean i can be friends with them but somehow i dont think we'll ever click.. i had my 1st love life in f1 too.. not really a good one but it's just to get the feel..

every year of my high school life just keeps getting better and better.. f2 and f3 was probably the best years of CHS plainly because it was the most free period of my high school life.. i had my best love during form 2 and which until now i never regretted anything..though i got my pants pulled down by shea shin not once but twice.. once in f1 and the 2nd in f2.. quite pissed off actually.. we're teenagers, not kids.. grow up asshole..

f3 was as i say the horniest year of my high school life..guess sitting beside chun kit for a whole year does has it's effect.. i still remember vomiting behind the class and teacher was still there teaching in front not knowing what had happened.. useless teacher.. i had my 1st ever performance as a band during the school's Golden Jubilee concert which was awesome.. subsequently we've performed a few more times which was really great.. i miss my f3 life..

f4 and f5 is definitely my most emotionally-tough years... the struggle and hardship over these two years have definitely made me stronger and think more wisely.. my time as finance director of interact club has thought me a very valuable lesson "no matter how badly you don't want a responsibility it is always there and you must take up the responsibility regardless of what you think".. and as much fun as it had been, sitting beside ah neh does have it's effects.. now i'm just bombarding insults all over the place without the need to think.. and i em-ceed the scout's campfire which was a bloody huge event.. i wasn't feeling well throughout the event but did my best i couldn't have any regrets.. it was a great experience to be a host for around 1000 people i guess?? fun times of scout hahaha..

overall i really enjoyed my high school like in CHS and i would like to thank everyone who had supported me throughout the tougher times.. i prefer not to name names in case i left out some and cause uneasiness in our relationship..

i wish all of you best of luck in your future and really hope that we'll see each other again..

111st POST

my 111st post since i started blogging..started around mid last year i think..

technically SPM is over since there's not much to study for chinese and EST..

i'm writing this post cause i'm bored.. nothing better to do..

SPM has been much easier than i expected..

but i did created 2 experiments from scratch since i have no idea how both experiments are..

can't wait for SPM to be officially over..

my new name

well today in library i accidentally met someone i know from Brickfields temple who told Li Chung my buddhist name..there from now on my name is Chris Karuna Chyemaster Thamzord Thambi Chye Nyit Yang or CKCTTCNY in short..

Chris-a name i gave myself

Karuna-the late chief Reverend gave me the name..it means compassion

Chyemaster Thamzord-ask ah neh about that
Thambi-i dont need to say
Chye Nyit Yang-my original name..

CHRIS

today i "officially" introduced myself as "Chris" to someone other than my friends.. kinda proud moment i guess..

still waiting for my driver's license to come..due to my anxiousness that my license might come out today i was so restless i couldn't study.. wasted one perfect day of cramming more info into my brain.. at least i'm assured monday i'll get it..

so from now on you guys can call me chris.. that was stupid and lame but at least i have another name..kay that sounded stupid as well but who cares..

*anyone who has takan picture with me during Graduation Day can you please send me the photo?? thanks*

disappointment

i failed.. and i have nothing to add on.. must have been the bad karma i've accumulated for shooting the JPJ so badly.. wish me luck for my retake on the 3rd of november..

license here i come

i'll be having my driving test tomorrow morning.. i'm getting nervous already even though it's only 2.13pm now.. hopefully i can pass so i won't have to wait for another 2 weeks for a re-take if i fail(since the following monday is deepavali).. wish me luck.. i am actually quite confident but the stories of non-bribers usually fail is scaring me..

and i stayed up for 46 hours until yesterday night 10pm.. it's my was 1st time ever which was quite cool.. the 9 of us me,Shue Ze, Kah Joon,Kuo Wei,KP,Bryan Butler,Brian Loh,Mark Loh and Kay Zhi spent most of the night in a CC playing CS which was awesome.. mark went 'high' during the game and couldn't shut up at all.. all the crap that comes out from his mouth is just hilarious so it was fun having him there.. this CC trip was actually last minute and our initial plan was to play until 3am only and we did.. but after eating and drinking we decided to continue playing until 6am plus before heading back to Kah Joon's house, rested and went to playing basketball..

now i'm off to watch F1 on TV.. wish me luck in the driving test..

fish up the penis

A 2cm long fish apparently found it's way into the penis of a 14-year-old boy from India in a bizarre medical case.

The patient was admitted to hospital with complaints of pain, dribbling urine and acute urinary retention spanning a 24-hour period. According to the boy, the fish slipped into his penis while he was cleaning his aquarium at home.

Professor Vezhaventhan and Professor Jeyaraman, who treated the boy and later wrote a paper on the case, explained: "While he was cleaning the fish tank in his house, he was holding a fish in his hand and went to the toilet for passing urine. When he was passing urine, the fish slipped from his hand and entered his urethra and then he developed all these symptoms."

After detecting the fish in the boy's bladder, Vezhaventhan and Jeyaraman used a technique known as cystourethroscopy to insert a special set of forceps down the patient's penis. Unfortunately, the fish was just too slippery to grip, so they resorted to using a rigid ureteroscope with a tool attached that is normally used for removing bladder stones.

The fish the urologists removed, which Practical Fishkeeping believes to be a small member of the Betta genus, measured 2cm long and 1.5cm wide.

He was later admitted into counseling to help him overcome any trauma.


damn pro kan..

FUCK JPJ

i bloody had it with them lah.. chee bye postpone my driving test until the 20th.. just because they can't take too many applicants they need to reject me for the test on 13th.. and i fucking booked the date 2 weeks ago.. damn pissed off.. just another example of how idiotic and lazy govenrment workers are.. kiss my ass man JPJ..

no title

i think i've just met the stupidest people on earth.. well i can't say i've personally met them since most of them were behind me in kasturi.. but just listening to them will really make you day.. i know i sounded offensive but it's true..

so the sejarah teacher was teaching the section with all the Dasar-dasars in sejarah.. usually you'll answer his questions to yourselves just for the sake of answering so when he asked which company supplied electricity to the country some girl just right behind me somehow said Telecom.. i was like WTF?? thankfully she didn't say it out loud if not that'll probably be her most embarrassing moment in life.. then she dropped her highlighter and ask kwong weng if he can help her pick up her marker.. i was like double WTF?? and i've slowly realise the girls in kasturi KL is uglier than last time..even though it was only just 3 months plus since i've started going there but the quality of sight seeing is getting worse all the time.. hopefully the seminar will bring about more hot girls and less lalas.. can't stand them at all.. damn scary.. especially the fat ones..

so now trials are over and after one week of full relaxing i've prepared myself to push hard for SPM.. i'm already doing past years so that's an improvement from doing nothing at all..

and and and i'm having my driving test next monday.. hopefully i can pass it and start driving as soon as possible.. my car hasn't been sent to fix yet but it'll only be a matter of time before i start rempiting in my trusty 25 year old TOYOTA STARLERT!!

come to think of it i'm graduating very soon from secondary school.. just a few more weeks and 5 years of my Catholic High School will come to an end.. i don't know what i'll be like on graduating day but for now i'm not feeling anything.. i don't think i'll miss the school but i'll sure miss my friends and some teachers.. but if there isn't and end there won't be a new beginning right..


somehow i'm getting hooked to Synyster Gate of Avenged Sevenfold.. i wanna start downloading their songs..

PIZZA DAY!!

in another 10 minutes time i'm gonna have my 3rd and 4th pizzas of the day.. this just takes eating pizzas to a whole new level i guess..

and i missed out on my bands "recording" session today since i have no transport.. this is one of the reasons why i want to quickly get my bloody license..

and i spoilt my specs yet again..i thought i could fix the initial problem but then i just made matters worse..i think i'm doing a new one and hopefully it can be done by sunday cause i'll need it on that day itself since i'm going out with my 30 hour friends..

but for now..it's pizzas..

masturbation

found this really funny pic of Optimus Prime



damn random kan

rempit-ing days delayed

my dulaness against the JPJ(the national agency that has to do with driving lah) has just gone up another level.. cause they are pigs who can't fucking do their job..

1st.. they took their fucking sweet time issuing my L license.. then they had this fucking 1-month rule which states that L license holder can only take the driving test AFTER 1 month from the date of issue of the L license.. then i realise that the earliest date that i can take my test is on fucking 1st day of trials.. now that trials is ending they have to fucking go balik kampung.. even though i'm disappointed with not being able to take the test next monday which is the 29th since Raya is near they might get extra break BUT WHY THE FUCK 6TH OCTOBER ALSO NOT AVAILABLE?? fucking pigs not satisfied with 1 whole fucking week of holidays?? niama you only work once a week still want to pig.. can go burn in hell for all i care.. now i can only take my test on the 13th which is 2 weeks extra from what i'ved planned..

so what can i conclude from my complain?? JPJ workers are fucking pigs.. why?? if they would just issue my L license 1 week earlier non of these would happen and i would be driving before trials..it took them 2 bloody weeks just to make a bloody laminated piece of paper.. if i'm a christian i would be saying someone up there is playing me and testing my nerve since practically everyone knows about my urge to drive( no offence to christians kay) but since i'm a buddhist i must have done something bad to deserve such TERRIBLE KARMA.. need to start doing good from now on..

so close yet so damn far..

IKEA

i didn't know going to IKEA shopping with 3 other guys could be so fun.. and winning a free soft drink is way harder than i thought..

so this morning i went to visit a friend along with Kuo Wei,Kah Joon and Wei Seong.. went to his house 1st but in the end went to the hospital since he went for check up..after that went to 1u for the official PS3 launch..met with ah neh there and got to play the ps3.. my god the graphics are crazily good.. but the gameplay is so so lah.. not much difference.. the price for the concole.. RM1.8K..

after that went to IKEA and we had the best parking space in the lot.. right beside the entrance.. the guard let us park the car there so we just accept his kindness.. it's been so long since i went to IKEA so i was surprised how bloody big the place was.. took us nearly 2 hours walking the whole damn place.. so we walked and laugh and touched their furniture and argued.. in the end Kah Joon got a chair, a leaf(don't ask me what is that i damn lazy to explain),an alarm clock, floor mat, cups, double lamp, curtain hanger with spear heads which is all that he bought i think.. couldn't remember what Kuo Wei bought but he definitely had an alarm clock too and so do I.. just that mine is transparent and their's is blue.. ah neh had his "moment" at the place where people would get their flatpacks.. it was just hilarious so Kuo Wei snapped some pictures.. a malay auntie and an uncle with his son laughed at him.. when we finished this lady ask me if i wanted to do a feedback survey and i could get a free drink so i was like ok.. little did i know you have to answer 45 freaking questions and some of them not short just to get a soft drink.. my last comment on the survey was "why is it so hard to win a free soft drink?"

after shopping went to the curve to eat but we had NO IDEA where to eat so we stanoed for quite a while.. during that we saw astin with her family and Kuo Wei dripped sweat on someone's head.. in the end we decided on Sakae Sushi.. i don't like the food but the service was alright.. tried the boiled in salt water green pea which was totally awesome.. new favourite snack now.. we talked quite a lot and saw this dude with Elvis Pressley hairstyle.. NO JOKE but i couldn't take out my phone fast enough to snap a picture so yeah kinda wasted.. around 5 plus we ciao-ed cause Kah Joon was like "HAH 5 EDI?? SHIT I THOUGHT ONLY 3 PLUS"

so Kah Joon dropped me at my house and "sun bian" check out my future car..i'll post up pictures of the car soon just to show you guys how bloody cool the car is.. ah neh had to kick the tyre for fun.. i can't wait man.. 2 more weeks and i'll be driving(provided i pass the driving test)

DULAN

the today can be considered one of the most dulan day ever.. plainly because i wasted RM4.20 and around 1 hours plus of travel time.. i planned to go kasturi for tuition today since my BM tuition was shifted to the morning.. so when i reached kasturi i checked the board and found out physics was canceled.. was a bit dulan by then cause i'll have to go back on thursday and waste time and money travelling.. while waiting for the add maths' class to start i went to chat with wei ji and mun hon.. soon the bell rung so i walked towards the add math's class.. to my surprise everyone was already walking outta class with their bags so i thought maybe they allocated the class somewhere else.. when i realised people were going into different classes i checked the board and to my astonishment ADD MATHS BATAL!!!! i was truly pawn-ed by then.. i just wasted my time travelling from PJ all the way to KL just so i can have my classes canceled.. i wonder what did i do to deserve this.. now i'll have to go back tomorrow.. at least on friday i'm having both physics and add maths exams so there's still a good side to the change..

later in the afternoon i went to the library.. honestly speaking today i didn't study much in the library.. i went and look for the face reading book AGAIN and starting analyzing Li Chung's face..i think i can consider opening a face-reading booth where people can pay me to read their faces and tell them their fortune.. so far out of 2 experiments i can say that around 70%-80% of what i said about them with reference to the book is accurate.. all i need now is to get to book..

serious note here.. I REALLY NEED TO DISTANCE MYSELF FROM BRIAN LOH AKA AH NEH..i think i've changed quite a lot since knowing that bastard.. people say i'm more cheerful and a lot more friendlier.. BUT i also notice that i'm insulting people without feeling remorse for what i've said because i think that my insults are jokes and people won't take it seriously when in fact i might hurt people without knowing.. i'm definitely sure i've got this insult trait from ah neh cause he's always doing it plus my foul mouth is coming back..i can't stop swearing now.. all cause of HIM as well.. so from now on if i swear or insult you..i give you permission to whack me.. the harder the better.. i want to put an end to this 2 terrible habits..

still got 6 more days of trial exams(excluding the weekend) and we're free for one week but i think i'll be studying during the pig's break.. SPM is looming ever closer and i want to do well..

trials.. pretty much sucked.. that's all i have to say..

driving lesson no.3

IT WAS TOTALLY FUCKING AWESOME!!!

i am very very pleased with myself with today's lesson.. it could've been better but it was way better than the last lesson.. at least now i know what i need to do to pass the driving test but it'll have to wait till after trials since only starting this coming monday i can take my test.. why can't trials be on the 9th.. at least the uncle said now i can take test and pass.. that is a statement.. it's only my 6th hour of driving.. this is called skill..

my next mission.. finish up my remaining 5 hours of lessons, get my license and learn how to DRIFT!!

driving lesson no.2

I FREAKING SUCK AT DRIVING!!!

i lost count the number of times my engine died on me.. way worst than my 1st lesson..now i know what my problem really is..don't know how to adjust clutch and accelerator while UPHILL.. the rest of shit i know..just that part..

i hate myself.. i really do.. now i know why people hate manual..

recap of the week

another holiday has gone past and i've done little studying other than the chemistry revision i did in the 30 hour famine..

Monday..
went to High School Musical on Ice with Sonia, Astin and sonia's friend Emily(i think..can't recall her name all of a sudden).. the skating was nice and basketball on ice was funny especially the game winning shot but the skaters are way too old to be high school-ers and all the conversations were pre-recorded and the songs were the exact same ones from the movie.. even 3 year old's would the disappointed with it..

Tuesday..
had my 1st driving lesson and it was really cool.. driving is like so natural to me.. i think i did quite well except the part which i'm suppose to smoothly release the clutch and step on the accelerator when i'm moving from a stationary position..my mom says it's not a problem since it's every new driver's problem..it gets better over time and experience..

then in the evening went to The Curve to celebrate Wei Jun's farewell(he's leaving on the 6th but he'll be back during winter) watched wall E which was suppose to be sad but it ended up being a comedy for me.. then had our dinner at laundry eating italiannis's food.. after food we had Blue Margarita and it was kinda good.. i wouldn't mind drinking now since that day i realised i've got a pretty good alcohol tolerance level.. 5 glass of it and i don't feel a thing.. unlike the Brians..

wednesday..
nothing to report..had double tuition that's all

thursday..
pretty much the same..had triple tuition but it was fine..kasturi mah 1.10 hours per session..

friday..
usual friday..tuition in the evening..

saturday and sunday..
went to my 1st ever 30 hour famine and i don't think it'll be my last.. overall the experience was really good and i've meet a gang of great new friends.. a big thanks to Zhen my group leader for being such a good sport and to the rest of the group Satya,Malene,Vicky,Anthony and Ee Leng for making the famine such a great time..learned a new game called Mafia and a new word KAWABANGGA!!! something else happened there which i won't tell out just so Li Chung won't be "jokingly" dulan and pissed.. it was a shocker for me..that's all i'm saying..

sorry no pics since i have no camera.. all the pic is with Li Chung and he'll be geting the other photos from the group as well..

that's pretty much my holiday.. anyone going to the Merdeka Countdown??

tagged..again..during May

totally didn't know i was tagged before..this one was during May..and i'm doing this to please Jessie

1) what do you want most now?
to have the will to freaking study for trials and SPM and fast fast start driving since i have my L now..

2) who is person you trust most?
me myself and I

3) are you in love?
i guess not..i hope not..maybe after SPM

4) if you have a dream come true, what is it?
just one?? i ahve many dreams you know

5)do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes i do and i've seen rainbows without rain

6)what's your goal for this year?
score as many A's as i can for SPM.. best be straight A's

7) do you believe in eternity?
what does that mean?

8) have you ever broken a person's heart that he/she wanna commit suicide?
i don't recall doing such thing but i sure hope i didn't do it indirectly

9) what feeling do you love most?
WINNING!! i'm damn kiasu and the feeling of accomplishment

10) what are your requirements for your other half?
fun, loving, outgoing and loyal

11) what kinda feelings do you hate most?
LOSING!! being betrayed and treated unfairly

12) do you cherish every friendship of yours?
i know the ones that i cherish most..

13) what do you want to do in the future?
be the most prominent special agent in FBI..maybe leader of SWAT

14) what is the most important thing in your life?
family's and friend's love and support

15) what do you feel last night?
i've forgotten

16) who do you hope to be always there for you?
my mom dad and sis and certain friends(not gonna name names just in case)

17) when do you think the world will end?
i know when my world will end.. when i pass away

18) the world ends tomorrow, what will you do?
spend the last moments with my family and most cherished friends..

19) what do you think of the person who tagged you?
NO COMMENT!!!

20) what do you want to know right now?
who i really am..

KISS MY ARSE NS!!

I'M NOT CHOSEN FOR THE STUPIDEST PROGRAM ON EARTH!!

bad news is i finished my mint choc chip last night..craving for more..gonna buy 1/2 gallon the next time..

tagged..

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
1st reaction will be asking her why.. then i'll go emo and be pissed off at myself for failing in a relationship before moving on..

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
short term..score for SPM.. long term.. living a rich, happy and healthy life with a great family.. family is important in life

#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
never thought about it.. i wouldn't mind outdoor weddings like garden or beach wedding i guess.. (nearly went to a garden wedding in Cameron but my cousin changed plan *she married a filthy rich dude*)

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
i won't say that i'm confused i just don't know what does the future hold for me.. i pretty much have everything planned until uni unless something changes..

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
again never really give it much thought but a simple, happy-go-lucky girl who would love me unconditionally.. someone that i can be myself when i'm with her and someone that loves me for who i am(even my flaws and weaknesses).. as long as she's not too bad looking then everything will be fine..oh yeah and LOYAL..

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
both.. it won't feel right if it's just one of these..

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
it really depends on the situation.. if it's just one-way then i'll have to consider letting her go but if there's a chance then i'll wait.. possible for a long time..

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
sincerely hope that she is happy with whoever she's with.. no point trying to get her if she's attached..

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
my brothers both older and younger..the fact that i'm not studying.. my ankle..and my confusion..

#10. Is being tagged fun?
this is my first.. feeling neutral about it..

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
i'll be 27 by then.. having a stable and well-paid job and getting ready to be married and have children..(my plan is to get married by 28 and have my 1st child by at least 30)

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
family and friends.. can't live without them both..

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
no comment

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
i don't think i wanna get married if i'm poor since i won't be able to provide a good living environment for my family..

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
snooze my alarm and go back to sleep for another 9 minutes..

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
if it's the right one then of course but how would we know which relationship is the right one..

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i won't pick until my feelings are clear..

#18. What type of friends do you like?
fun and good listeners who will always have my back when i need them and won't bug me to tell them stuff..

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
backstabbers(is this a real word?)..i would love to say hypocrites but i think i'm one myself..someone who talks bad about me behind my back.. at least have the balls to say it in front of me but i can't promise that i won't punch you..

DULAN!!!

I DAMN FUCKING DULAN!!!

it's god damn bloody obvious my comp sucks terribly but can't you fucking assholes leave my comp alone!! it's terrible that my comp has less than 20GB of memory, the fucking screen can't work properly and that it's full of useless stuff so why the fuck you guys still wanna use it?? you guys have a comp.. FUCKING USE IT!! if it's not working up to your fucking standard then FUCKING FIX IT!! don't just fucking blaming that others spoilt it then they should fix it.. IT'S YOURS DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!! i fucking had it with you guys constantly using my comp.. this is fucking why i want a fucking laptop to begin with..

anyway i ran the Adidas King of the Road marathon today which was great.. i never had a work out like this in such a long time.. my whole running vest was full of sweat and my ankle feels great.. it's just that it's still slightly swollen and it hurts a bit when i turn it so i'm still taking it easy(which is why i'm not fucking playing tomorrow).. but running 7km was fun.. my run was quite stop go since i jog and walk jog and walk which actually isn't a good thing to do.. at 1st i was running with Kah Joon but i couldn't keep up with him so he got away from me and i ended 40 runners behind him at the finish.. it was refreshing and i can't wait for the next marathon which i have no idea what event it may be..

trial is coming up.. gonna start working hard.. still can't push myself to study.. i have the urge but i'm not taking action.. damn sad.. i'm screwed..

fuck my ankle

I BLOODY FUCKING HATE GETTING INJURED!!

played captain ball today and sprained my ankle.. it got swollen when i got home and after tuition it was quite terrible so i went to physiotherapist("tit da" in another words).. the dude is very good.. all thanks to wei jun's mom who introduce his clinic to my mom and now everyone in the family looks for him.. it was a really really painful experience and i'm quite sure i did alright.. my mom asked me after the session if it was painful i was like WTF?? she said i looked calm so i'm guessing my ability to not show emotions in my face has gone up another level.. it's so damn bloody painful i'm guessing some guys who doesn't have balls would cry over the pain.. thank god i'm a man..

now i can't run in the Adidas King of The Road marathon which is kinda disappointing cause i really wanna try running 7-8KM.. and i might not be able to play street soccer on monday.. it all depends on the swelling on my ankle.. the therapist says it takes up to a week or 2 so i'm taking a risk if i play on monday.. it all depends on me..

moral of the story?? fucking tie sports shoe(basketball shoe, futsal shoes, boot etc) as bloody tight as possible.. tight better than loose cause you won't "aw cai" that easily..

Happy Birthday Li Chung

A BIG BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUT TO VICTOR GOH LI CHUNG!!!(the one on the right)

today didn't start well at all..1st had a argument with my mom then dulan-ed until i saw my grandpa in hospital..his prostate swelled so he had to have a small operation which cost about RM8000++.. my dad has a video of the operation which is quite cool.. having thoughts of being a surgeon now.. i don't want to talk about the procedures cause it'll make you guys sick to your stomach..

after visiting my grandpa i went to 1u to celebrate Li Chung's birthday.. me, him and ah neh watch The Mummy which was kind of good..it wasn't as bad as i thought it might be.. the best characters are the main character's brother in law and his pilot friend.. they made the movie worthwhile.. after that met up with brianC and we went for lunch in a place called Pasta Zanmai..the food was good and the price was reasonable.. during the meal we found out wei ren was not coming to 1u so we chat and chat and chat and chat.. the four of us had "man talk" session(about an hour and a half).. only brianC wasn't opening up.. he "claims" that he wasn't comfortable talking with ah neh around which i won't blame him.. brianC said i changed and Li Chung backed him up.. i don't feel much of a change at all honestly speaking.. so is the change good or bad?? i got to know more about Li Chung's historiessssss(seriously a lot of shit) since we really opened up.. but we didn't like cry or did anything like that.. overall it was a cool experience.. i talked very little which was good cause i wasn't in the mood to open up.. just told them who the 2nd girl was.. at 1st they were totally clueless but after further explanation they were like "OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!".. so yeah i think it kind of shocked them??
personally i think i'm half lying to them(sorry guys).. i told them "A" but i'm not even sure of that myself.. i'm trying to ignore it since trials and SPM is coming real soon and i know i won't have the time to dwell on it but it's really bugging me for now.. so how??

anyway i found a few quotes which is kind of cool..
"winning doesn't mean always being 1st, winning means your doing better than you've done before" that's for you ah neh..
"Never break four thigns in life - Trust,Promise,Relation and Heartbecause when they break they don't make noise but pains a lot"
"everyone thinks of changing the world but never thought of changing himself"

THE BEST QUOTE
"if you win you need not explain, but if you lose you should not be there to explain" by Hitler which is probably why he commited suicide..

i'm addicted to transylvania and obviously by McFly..actually McFly as a whole.. i hope we can perform the songs one day.. anyone having an event which my band can perform?? we're really really good..no kidding..

210708

this year has got to be the most pleasant birthday i have ever had.. even better than last year's birthday.. reason?? everything was unexpected..

it all started rather normally.. after 12am some of my friends started sending me smses wishing me happy birthday..but then i was rather lazy to reply so i'll apologize now.. SORRY.. ah neh sent me birthday wishes before 12 so that he can be 1st.. too bad lah ah neh it's still before 12 so you are still NEGATIVE 50.. went to school more friends wished me happy birthday.. here i want to specially thank Tze Chen and the rest of my class for getting me my 1st ever Choc Indulgence birthday cake.. it really means a lot to me even though i've only known you guys around a year and a half but still thank you very much.. after my bio period my friends told me to stay in class but then i really needed to pee so in the end i still hung back..i knew what was gonna happen so their plan kinda back fired but still it's the thought that counts.. i had like a parade down to the canteen with my friends all around me.. had my friends sing the birthday song for everyone to hear so i'm kinda embarrassed.. nothing much happened until after school.. was looking for friends to go watch movie with me so kai jie, ah neh and brianC had something like a "fight".. it was kinda funny..i'm the one who should be the most dulan but i was cool with no one going out with me.. i already told myself if no one goes i'll be watching it alone.. in the end i went watching DARK KNIGHT with ah neh and pei yee.. OMG the movie was so so so damn nice.. very action packed at the same time very meaningful..you'll never get a movie better than this one.. it has everything to keep a person on their seat waiting for the next scene..

i had my birthday dinner at a place called EDEN.. it was supposedly a famous restaurant back in the old days but i can honestly tell you now the food isn't up to a high class restaurant standard.. however everything was good when they brought out the choc banana cake for me.. i was totally in shock..no words can describe how i felt and i was quite close to tearing up.. i mean i never treated my elder bro well it was always just "hi,gor" so this really means a lot to me..

well i guess why i don't expect much for birthdays all started when i was in form 1.. i was getting really pumped up since it was my birthday and i didn't get a single birthday wish at all during that day.. not even a msg(other than my family).. i understand that my newer friends for not wishing but even friends from my primary school didn't wish me..it really hit me so hard i felt that birthdays has lost it's magic.. it's just totally another normal day..just the day that i was born in.. ever since 21/07/2004 i told myself don't expect much for your birthday.. if you have birthday wishes or presents it's good but if you don't get anything don't sweat about it..no expectation no disappointment was my phrase for my birthday..

i guess the only regret i have for this year is that i didn't get to wet with my friends.. really wish i could go out with my friends but things weren't meant to be(partly me fault for not informing you guys earlier since i was so damn busy with campfire).. other than that i'm really happy with my birthday this year..

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

post mortem

it's 1 something in the morning and i just reached back home from campfire..not gonna talk about it now since i'm so dead tired but all i can say is that things could be much worse..

AARGGGHHH

Odyssey Aeon is less than 24 hours away..

everything will be good and everything will go perfectly.. i will be hosting this event so come and give some support!!!

will be going to school now.. see you guys tomorrow night

UNDANG!!!

i'm gonna take my undang computer test tomorrow..kind of nervous actually since there are people who failed it..even though everyone said just do the 500 questions and you sure pass but i'm still kinda scared ever since i had the dream of failing undang.. in the dream i've only scored 40/50..passing mark is 42/50.. but if i pass it'll be another step closer of reaching my childhood dream of DRIVING!!!

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i'm getting even more nervous about it.. sometimes i wonder if i can be a good emcee..i don't know why but i always love to doubt myself on certain stuff.. such as being an emcee.. a good emcee..plus plus plus..i'm not even done with my own department slideshow.. hopefully everything can be done by thursday.. my department slideshow is gonna kickass.. no doubt.. bloody JUMPER style.."moving" here and there..

wishing myself best of luck tomorrow..hopefully i will pass..


anyone done with the addmaths project can lend me??

finally..

it's officially less than 1 week from campfire and yet EU CHIN HAVEN'T FREAKING CONFIRM THE AGENDA FOR THE DAY!!! i'm starting to get irritated cause i can't finalize my emcee script.. i've changed the script 2-3 times already and yet i'm not finished cause apparently got performance issues.. just freaking hope he'll hurry up.. videos are almost done, just a few scenes and my own department slideshow.. the committee slideshow is actually really good(with a few exception) but somehow there's not enough feel for the theme slideshow.. maybe it's cause i haven't add in the songs..hopefully it'll turn out good..

i'm FINALLY going to go for my undang shits starting this weekend.. i've dragged this since end of last year..i have everything calculated and i'll get my P license before the trials so i can get some feel of driving before SPM.. will it be a rush if i take my course this sunday and go for the exams on the following friday?? somehow i don't think i will fail the undang test simply because i don't want to pay the extra 50 bucks to re-take..

i'm emcee-ing and performing for the campfire so please please please do come and support.. i'll really really appreciate it..

ODYSSEY ● AEON

date: 19/7/08

time: 1900-2300
venue: our school CHS
price: RM18 per person( food and drinks provided)

kasturi..

just an observation.. girls at kasturi KL is so so so lala..even though most of them are in school uniforms but your guess is as good as mine as to what they will wear when they go happy happy..where as girls from kasturi PJ is so much hotter and un-lala looking.. i was there for the PMR intensive course and the girls there are so hot..i can't imagine how much hotter they are now since they're form 5.. personally i would rather go kasturi PJ but the teachers in kasturi KL is prooven better..so i guess now i'll be stuck with lalas for 3 months..

letting go

finally i know how does it feel like fully letting go..not just saying it out loud..but really feeling a weight off my shoulder..no more jealousy and anxiety over those issues..sometimes i wonder why it took me so so so damn long to let go.. i just couldn't stop thinking and thinking about things which are irrelevant which come to think of it now it's rather stupid of me..but nevertheless i've let go and IT FEELS GOOD!!! i can tell everyone now..I DON'T LIKE ANYONE ANYMORE!!

campfire is coming up real soon and i've been really busy for the past week or so preparing for it.. it's been really hard work but i think we can pull this off very nicely.. it may be the last ever big scale campfire to be organized since there's a new ruling on how campfires should be done..the videos are almost done now and i've got to say both of them are coming along real good.. the only complain i have is that a fucking rehearsal is a practice run for the whole show..not a fucking time to be fucking practicing individually..that's suppose to be done at home not during rehearsal..it may be understandable for the 1st rehearsal but the 2nd one is just pure bullshit..i've wasted around 4-6 hours on both rehearsals..

after the campfire i'll be going all out studying harder and smarter for the upcoming trials..i really want to do well in the trial and score as high as i can..i'm planning to go into the january intake so i can't wait for my SPM results..my trials have to be good..there's no other way..

in a few more months i'll be ending my high school life.. honestly speaking i don't know how i'm gonna feel on the day i say goodbye to my friends.. some of whom i've known for 4-5 years and might not be able to see them ever again.. the thought of separating with my friends are quite daunting but as the chapter of my high school life comes to a close and a new chapter begins i know i've made the right choice in befriending my current gang of friends.. they mean so so so much to me and i love them so much.. even though i don't really show it..



i'm still having my SI with me.. anyone wants it?

STUPID MSN

niama lor my msn not working..this few days never online..


very short post..nothing else to write..will blog about shue ze's party when i got my pics..

bummer..

i just found out the prefects and lps' trip to singapore is on the same weekend as our school's scout campfire..i'm feeling really dulan and disappointed..i was really expecting and hoping that my friends would come and support us since it's our last year..if i put it in a selfish way i was hoping for them to come support ME since it'll be my 1st time emcee-ing such a big event..emcee-ing is not an easy job so i really need all the support i can get..with so many of my friends being in s'pore..well i guess i'll have to be stronger on the night..

thats not the most dulan part..apparently because of 1 FUCKING PERSON they had to postpone the trip originally planned for the week before the campfire..imagine..postponing the whole trip and ruining the plans of people for the following week just because of 1 BLOODY USELESS BRAINLESS PERSON..WHO THE BLOODY HELL DOES HE/SHE THINKS HE/SHE IS.??

campfire is only 3 weeks away..the tension is seriously rising..deadlines are tighter now..i'm starting to feel the pressure..HELP ME!!

there's a slight change of plan..instead of birthday voucher which only has 30% discount..now PDI concept store is having Padini Member Card sale which means discounts can get up to 50% on selected items..more worth it right..my birthday voucher can use on some other days..

GANADORES!!

just finished watching spain vs italy match and i have to say Aragones suck pretty badly..how can anyone in their right mind sub Torres out of the match and put in some unknown guy..sure they Guiza dude scored 27 la liga goals but Torres has more brain and pace and skill etc..in the end Guiza missed quite some chances and his penalty kick during penalty shootout..if Spain continue playing the way the are now they are gonna get owned by Russia..

i finally cut my hair after 2 months..it's a bit shorter than i wanted but hairs do grow back so it's ok..anyway saw two really really hot looking girls in Professor ,Tesco today..the 1st one was buying St.John's uni so should be around the same age(no guilty consciences "gap"ing at her) but the other one was buying blue skirt with light blue shirt..exactly the same colours for my primary school's prefects uni..so she should be a primary school student unless someone can tell me there's a secondary which still let's students wear blue skirt or pants..she has boobs and body figures and all but i feel like a pedophile "gap"ing her..

anyway i found further proof that my face is either damn scary or just plain ugly..i was going to some place for breakfast when i walked past these 2 teenage girls who were smiling at each other(telling gossips i guess) then when one of them saw me her smile quickly fade away..i'm quite ZI BEI!!!

anyway time for my bath and prepare for school..(my 1st tie blogging so early in the morning)

no title

just a short question..should i dye my hair before or after prom?? no point telling me not to cause i've decided to dye my hair anyway..not to worry i won't be dying the traditional LALA colour( gold) or anything similar to it..more likely colours like light auburn or honey brown..now it seems like i need to lighten my hair before dyeing those colours..

anyway Padini mailed me a birthday voucher (yes they actually mail it)..it took me quite a while to figure out why they send it..then i got wahyu reminding me i'm a Padini Members Card holder..so now i have a voucher which gives me 30% off on normal priced items from Vincci,Vincci accessories,Vincci*,PDI,Padini,Padini Authentics,Padini Concept Store,SEED,P&CO (i'm just typing everything shop on the voucher)

some of the more important terms and conditions
- valid for single redemption only(which means i can only use it once)
- valid for gross purchases not exceeding RM1000 in a single receipt only(which means the offer is up to RM1000 only)
-not valid with other promotions, discounted items,super value items,fragrance & cosmetics (you guys understand hor)

so..i guess i'll be shopping in the near future..anyone wanna tag a long??( i wanna fully utilize the RM1000 part..a bit wasted if i only buy like RM200 worth of stuff and i know i won't spend up to RM700*)

*thats after the maximum of RM1000 spent


shopping anyone??

asshole

from today onwards, i'm disassociating myself with the youngest member of my family..from now on he shall be known as The Asshole..don't ask me why..

he is just an asshole who will never change for the better..even though i know it's his kiasu-ness that made him this way but i'll never forgive him ever again..if i can control my kiasu-ness why can't he fucking do it..i've tolerated long enough..even the world's most patient person has his limit..people who knows me knows that i'm a very very very patient person..maybe not so now a days but i usually bottle up all my complaints to myself..to make me really really pissed off means i've got a serious problem with you..and i have a fucking serious problem with the asshole..

quote

i found this quote from a friend's blog..


"if a guy likes a girl for a good long time, as in really long, say years, sometimes it doesnt mean that that guy is simply loyal , or especially fanatic about the girl, but sometimes it means that he is simply too used to liking that girl, the guy prolly dint look around him to try and widen his prospects and accepts other choices, but rather he's too focused on the same girl to the extend it becomes a hard-to-kick habit to him , unknowingly. so routine that life would feel a lil outta the norm once he stops liking the girl."

by my friend's friend which i don't know who

i find it rather true to a certain extent..actually i support the whole statement..

coincidence??

what are the odds of someone having an e-mail address which is so so so so darn similar to yours when you actually used your own actual name to make that e-mail..quite impossible right?? however i've been proven wrong..

today(make it yesterday since it's after 12) some chick added me on msn..so being the 'nice' guy that i am and since she's a hot chick..i bluntly asked her why she added me on msn since i had NO IDEA who she was (just so you guys know i do that to everyone newly added on my msn unless i know him/her) her reply was the funniest shit ever.." i'm so sorry i added the wrong person"..i was like WTF how can you add the wrong person on msn?? apparently she wanted to add a person's msn by the name nyit_yOng2107@hotmail.com..my msn is nyit_yAng2107@hotmail.com.. i created this msn based on my actual name and birthday so how the bloody hell can this dude have such a similar msn to mine?? coincidence?? i guess not..why?? cause i think this dude is trying to steal my identity.. how bloody more obiang can i get?? i felt a mixture of dulan and amusement so since there's no word to describe how i felt i shall use OBIANG!!

anyway after exams i'm going all out to complete the slideshows for the Scout Campfire which is gonna be the coolest ever..and speaking fo exams i've been studying but i don't think i'm studying enough..need to work harder..only 1 week left of freetime studying so i'll need to treasure it..and and and..I HAVE BASKIN ROBBINS although the fucker took his bloody time serving me i'm happy enough with the ice cream..



this is the part where ppl write their emo shits but tonight i don't feel emo at all..great improvement eh??

EXAMS!!

i feel so so so damn bad not studying AT ALL for the past 2 days..

i'm gonna go all out studying for this term's exams starting tomorrow..this is my vow..

no more lazing around no more "i'll study later" no more tv just study study study!!!

GUY DAY OUT!! (sounds gay)

after having some heart to heart talk with Cheryl on friday night i decided i need a break from my own life..i have to admit only after re-reading that conva i realise how fucked up i seemed to be..everything i said was really negative and it really just brings my morale down..the whole day i was feeling really off..so i decided on saturday i'm not gonna go jobweek (sorry Li Shawn) cause i seriously DO NOT feel well at all..i don't wanna transfer my negative energy to you guys..

so on saturday afternoon i went to 1u to watch IRON MAN and SPEED RACER..just me,myself and i(sounds familiar)!! it's like a guy day out but all by myself..IRON MAN was just as i expected..but the suit was really really cool..can't wait for the sequel..after that i watched SPEED RACER which was equally cool..i have to say i've never seen such a movie where humans are humans but everything else is animated at the same time..i spent a long time in the arcades too..just playing, playing and playing but i've only spent around 10 bucks there so to me it's time and money well spent..playing in the arcade, i just forget about everything else in the world..i enjoyed myself immensely and i actually finished the Advance level of Daytona with 15 seconds to spare.. i'm getting more and more pro edi..can't say the same for my pool skills..sucked pretty badly..


Gryffindor should change their mascot from a lion to IRON MAN..


my new favourite car..

i went looking for my colleagues too when i was in 1u..i haven't seen them in AGES and yet they did not changed one bit..i enjoyed chatting with them..the smile on their faces when they saw me was just amazing..it warms my heart..at 1st i just wanted to go there say hi then ciao but they are my family..at least they still treat me like a younger brother..Choy Yee was like the happiest to see me based on her reactions and immediately she noticed that i'm darker..and Sin Fei had to punch me after so many months..of course there's Vin who's gayness never stop amazes me..there's also Sky(yes he intro himself as Sky when we 1st met) who i think forgotten my name and just calls me lengzhai on that day..i had to go back the 2nd time since a few of them was having lunch at the time and also cause Siew Lian told me Bee Ling was saying just the other day "eh Yang kinda long never come visit us edi hor" so i HAD to at least say hi to her..so after SPEED RACER i went back and saw both Bee Ling and Mona..again they seemed really happy to see me..and also almost immediately they say that i'm darker..am i really that dark?? anyway Mona actually saw through me and asked if i had problems..at 1st she asked if i got relationships problem which was only half correct but not wanting to worry her i just denied..she said i looked rather grave as if i got into a fight with a close friend..it's moments like these that makes me cherish them more then ever..they made me realise that i'm not such a loser that i thought i am..the fact that i can bring smiles to their faces when they see me proofs that i'm not such a terrible guy..

after my day out,i realised that i've got to move on with life no matter what..at times i really wished i was back at SEED working and spending time with my colleagues but that's just not the way for me..the only reason they're there working cause they had no money to study..i also realised that if i start liking someone else then i'll need to be brave or in other words BE A MAN,MAKE BALLS FOR MYSELF(sounds wrong)..i thought liking *cough* was torture but THIS takes things to a whole new level..i'm just really confused now about my feelings..for both of them..

on another note

this is my 4th family (1st being my REAL family,2nd is my friends and 3rd is my colleagues)

PURPLE HOUSE!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS TILL DEATH!!

and i promise i'll be back for next year's Sports Day to help out as long as someone keeps me posted about it..by then i'll be able to drive too..

emo post

I HATE BEING EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO!!!!

i never had an emo moment in such a long time..this whole day..well not the whole day mostly after tuition when i've finally had time for myself i suddenly had an emo attack..and i'm still emo now..

i really don't know whats happening to me..i just feel so so so so off the whole day and thats the truth..the day was fine nothing bad happened but somehow i still feel something is wrong..like something isn't happening..

i hate myself for being so weak now..to make things worse i'm listening to really really emo songs..i really can't help it..


WHY WHY WHY!!!

expedition..

after more than a few months..i went CYCLING!!

around 5 plus i cycled over to ah neh's place..mark tagged along so we went we went to the OTAI burger stall behind SHELL..according to Uncle Shah(ah neh's driver) the burgers there are nice..110% crap..the burgers there were the worst EVER tasted in my entire life (excluding those burgers that i had from fund raisers) my ayam special tasted like..nothing..tasteless shit..it was so dreadful i didn't take a pic of it..i threw around a quarter of the burger..too terrible..

then we went looking for CENDOL..1st CENDOL stop was opposite PETRONAS..sau dong edi so we went to the other side of TAMAN TUN..that wan oso sau dong..manyak DULAN cycling here and there so we decided to stop at Makbul and yamcha there..both me and mark ordered ice kacang..damn big and only for 3.50..damn dai..ah neh ordered ROJAK and MEGGI GORENG TAK MAU PEDAS TAK MAU SAYUR..ice kacang was so so so damn good..Makbul is so going to be one of my yamcha place when i get to drive..that's after Murni..

went home and stoned until now..and i need to get started on studying..exams 2 weeks away..no mood..no matter what i'll have to push myself..this term's target..as always..PASS EVERY SINGLE DAMN SUBJECT!!



i'm everyone's friend..but i'm no one's best friend..not complaining..just observation..
and why the hell am i feeling so confused..is it temporary??

random post..

anyway i really want to blog about sports day but i want to wait for the pictures to arrive from all the other ungu members..i don't know how many cameras were used so i'll just have to slowly find out myself..for now i shall just recap my sports day..

thursday:- i spent the whole freaking day in school from 8am till 8pm(except for the 2 hours in tuition)..i followed Mr.William around to buy stuff for the house but since it was Labours Day a lot of shops didn't open so everything was bought in Old Town which was much much more expensive than usual..just so you guys know..you need nerves of steel to sit in Mr.Williams car..he's driving is just so so so.."YENG"..the whole day i was training the marchers and helping out the deco..i'm just a bit disappointed the 2 Pegasus was a bit too tiny..

friday:- from morning till late evening i was in school building the gadjet to be used as the "Temple of Victory".. i went home around 6.30pm,bathed,ate and went back to school..instead of helping my fellow house members,i went yamcha with wei ren,brianC,brianL and Kah Joon at Murni SS2..i didn't regret it at all..it was the funniest time ever..1st Wei Ren got into a small *cough* then while in Murni somehow i was the entertainer for once..i guess i was too tired and didn't think through properly before i spoke..everything i said wasn't really making any sense..anyway on the way back school the 5 of us in the Satria was constantly laughing due to Wei Ren's *cough* lack of judgement *cough* in driving..it was fun,exciting and scary at the same time..and Kah Joon honked some Indian/Malay guy (i don't know whichever) cause he simply crossed the road..

friday night/saturday early morning:- i helped the deco team(just a lil) and then went off to work with the gadjet..i wanted to sleep at around 12 somethign since everyone is pushing me to sleep as i was to run on Sports Day..but how could i with all the useless form4 assholes (one in perticular) who does his job terribly and doesn't help others..in the end i slept at 2.30am but had to wake up around 3am to check on the assholes..at least this time Wei Kuang is awake..so that's the end of my involvement in the Deco..

Sports day:- i woke up around 5.30am,wash up and went to check on the marchers..they looked great and Zeus(Wei Chuen) looked..rather real..so i had a piece of bread from Soo Ling,banana from Li Shawn and Red Bull from Xiau Yen for breakfast which was really great..at least i had the energy to run for the 2 events i was participating in..

that's my Sports Day..i just want to say i'm really really proud of the marchers..even though they didnt win they gave it their all which means a lot to me..(i doubt any of them reads my blog) and also special thanks to Li Shawn,Neal,Cindy,Pei Wen,Xiau Yen,Wei Kuang for supporting me and each other during the whole event..not forgetting all the other ungu members and also REN HONG for betraying his rumah and helping us with the decos..i love you guys till death..

for now..I WANT THOSE BLOODY PICTURES!!!


i feel so lost now..i'm really confused about myself,my feelings..what should i do??(i know it's damn random but i can't help myself..need to express my feeling somehow)

strangers

i know it's a bit odd blogging about strangers but this two seems really nice people..

1st is Paul from England..had a very very very good chat with him while playing yahoo pool..i haven't played the game in a year and when i re-started(thanks to jess) i'm having the time of my life playing the game..people in the game has changed since i last played it..everyone is chatting with each other in the game..what i know is Paul is 22yo and he is in Accounting..he watches football and he is into MCR..rocker dude i guess..

then today i meet this 25yo chick name angie from texas,USA..i don't know if she's a chick lah 'm just guessing since she's 25..she's a school math teacher though i don't know which grade she is teaching..

the best part was both of them knows about Malaysia!! Malaysia Boleh wei..

it was fun knowing these 2 people..it has changed my perspective of "people i might met on the internet" cause i expected 99% of horn dogs or people like that..Paul and Angie showed me that there are good people on the internet too..too bad i didn't get their e-mails cause i still think it's not safe enough to do so..hopefully we'll meet again someday in pool then i'll definately get their e-mails..

weekend

while the weekend is ending soon,i realised i haven't start my studying for the mid-term exams..

on saturday we had the Majlis Anugerah Cermelang so interacters had to duty..usherers..damn idiotic job considering the hall is in plain sight and parents aren't that blind or stupid to not notice the hall..then we had to escort them to the hall but most of them say don't need..we had further instructions to stick with them..and they too ask us to fuck off in a polite way..
conclusion..ONLY USHER PEOPLE WHEN THEY ARE AT PLACES THEY DON'T KNOW OFF!!
after that started taking videos for the scout campfire..the chairperson and vice-chairperson video is rather funny but you guys will need to wait until the campfire to watch it..(cause we haven't finish filming let alone editing)

then i head over to MV to celebrate Ee Lynn's b'day..walked around MV and Gardens which was a first..we head into bra shops like La Senza and another one which i can't remember cause BrianC wanted to know more about bras..went over to Toys R Us as it is a routine..selepas itu went to Secret Recipe to eat cake..7 different types of cake(supposedly fitted together to be one cake but i heard that Jie Yi mad a mess outta it so it was served in 7 different plates)Ee Lynn was very very shocked and suprised..then yamcha and went home..on the bus Jie Yi was so so so so shocked when she found out the bus is taking a big round before reaching 1u(what do you expect with a public bus) and she wanted to drop off somewhere between seksyen 14 and Tmn Paramount so her dad could fetch her..me and shue ze talked her outta the idea since it would a waste of time..

today..went to some fund raiser lunch at jess's house..the food was erm..rather erm..nice?? cooked rice with ulam and spegetti with a much too sour sauce..watched some Tamil movie which was hilarious because of the way Li Chung was fascinated by it..then watched "The Messenger"..i didn't know Li Chung was THAT scared of horrors..i mean i'm afraid of it too but at least i can watch it..i can WATCH but it's the AFTER-EFFECT that's killing me so i don't watch it..

now a days i felt a surge of loneliness..don't know why though..i have great friends but somehow i still feel lonely....it's as if i don't have a friend which i can really truely depend on with all my heart(no offence guys)*note to Brian and even I-Ting..don't tell me i should connect with God or stuff like that cause you guys know i won't*any ways to overcome such loneliness??

A FREAKING 6 HOUR NAP!!

KKN CCB OMFG I ACTUALLY SLEPT FOR 6 FREAKING HOURS THIS AFTERNOON!!
(i could easily sleep until the next morning)

tomorrow going to participate in Sukan Saringan..my 2nd ever time doing so..since it's my last year in CHS i'm joining as many events as possible but Li Shawn only signed me up for 100m,4x100m and triple jump(lompat kijang)..the only reason i'm joining cause i want to run during Sport's Day..i want to feel the atmosphere..everytime during Sport's Day i just stone or walk around with friends in school so it's time for a change..after all i'm a sporty person..just a bit lazy that's all..

anymore citing residents' complaints as the main reason but i think it's cause too many outsiders are using it..i mean if you've decided to built it why not let us freaking use the last saturday night was the most boring night ever in my life!! i was just stoning in front of the computer..i didn't even have the mood to play my PS2..after a year and 3 months of in tense basketballing every saturday night suddenly the school doesn't allow us to use the sportcentrefesilities??bringing in one or 2 friends doesn't matter..then they say we keep damaging the hoops and fans..just so they know..their hoops are really really useless to the core..they don't have any spring suspension to at least absorb the tension of balls hitting the hoop..2 metal struts aren't good enough to do the job..why can't the school just spend a lil more upgrading the hoops..it's not like the school is debt ridden or something..i seriously hope they school will reopen the sportcentre on saturday nights..

we didnt' make it to perform for teachers' day..thanks to jess' unreliable info..we thought we had it in the bag..but we're still performing for prom and hopefully the Scouts' Campfire..i'll be em-ceeing the Campfire..so come and support!!!



i'm somehow pussified after being a man..

i don't know what to put as this post's title

my blog is rotting..my life is rotting..it's already April and i still don't have the "OMFG SPM IS GETTING NEARER!!" mood..

well i haven't been blogging for more than 2 weeks because there's nothing to blog about actually..like is just dull and boring..nothing is interesting yet nothing is uninteresting..

i would like to say i did well in the auditions for teacher's day but unfortunately i can't cause i think i stoned on stage that day and it was bloody HOT..sweating from head to toe..but according to Brian after referring to Jess we made it for Miss Lum's retirement performance..which is better i guess since everyone would be there so we can showcase our talent to everyone..but i still want to perform during teacher's day..

for the past week i'm into manga..yes MANGA..japanese comics..they're really not bad actually..their anime isn't bad too but it's just a bit draggy that's all..so now i'm reading RUROUNI KENSHIN which is better known as SAMURAI X..i'm loving it and i can say i'm addicted to it..in around a week or less i've finished around 157 chapters which is around 2983 pages of comics..when i finish this i'm gonna ask my friends to recommend me some other pro mangas..

today we had career talk by Sunway Uni Collage..until now i still don't know what i want to study..i'm not into figuring and numbers so i guess accounting and finance is out of the question..my science and add maths is really weak too so engineering is also not a really good option..my passion is CARS and GUNS but i don't know any course specifically for both of them anyway hahahahaha..Brian talked about Corporate Law the other day and i find it rather interesting..so i'm looking into law too as a 2nd or 3rd option..i'm guessing there's other laws other than criminal and corporate law..so for now my options are business management,events management,law,tourism and hospitality and perhaps psycology if i can do well in Chem and Bio somehow..maybe towards the end of the years i'll be clearer with what i want to study..but one thing is certain..without scholership i won't be studying overseas..my dad told me he doesn't have the financial support for me to study overseas..best hopes i can do well in collage to get a scholership to further my studies overseas..

oh yeah..i'm really really into piloting..either it's military or commercial i don't mind..flying aeroplane is something that really really interest me since young..

now..i shall continue reading about Hitokiri Battousai..

ICC and Pikajie birthday!!

last saturday i went to the 9th ICC Charity Concert together with Li Chung and the rest..i didn't take any pics of the concert cause 1) my phone punya cam suck 2) it's always damn freaking dark and 3) nothing worth while to take..anyway the highlight of the concert was watching BrianC kena shot by the confetti machine..i'm know it's bad to laugh cause it hurts but it was bloody funny..couldn't stop laughing with Li Chung..the concert ended half an hour late and the indian bus driver damn dulan..Li Chung dare not sit with him cause he was showing his dulan face..end of day..

the next day..sunday night i went to Kai Jie aka Pikajie's birthday party party..after finishing up my dinner i helped Li Chung to BBQ the food but in the end i became the ONLY one BBQ-ing..but i ain't complaining cause somehow i LOVE BBQ-ing food..Cookie was a nice companian too but that's cause i had food with me so he kept on following me..me being a nice guy fed him some lamb chop but it wasn't the best ideas cause the next day Pikajie told me Cookie will "lat mou" if he ate lamb..sorry little fella..

so from now onwards i'll will be opening "HAPPY THAMBI BBQ SHOP" everytime someone has a BBQ party and i'm invited..


the next time maybe i'll be wearing a singlet..

i've got all my results back..i'm pretty satisfied with it..subjetcs like physics and moral was better than expected..i actually got 64 for physics..damn happy..the rest was just as expected..Aced all my english subjects, flunked my add maths(26) and chemistry(38) yet again..at least this time i passed moral..for my next term aspiration it will be NO failing..it's hard but i'll work hard towards the goal..

i want justice..do i really "ban cool" or act yeng?? cause personally i don't think that i did neither..maybe i just have the cold looks..i don't know..and and and and..am i really so scary that people would actually be afraid to talk to me??is it actually possible??please tell me i'm not scary..i wanna be friendly not scary..

MANHOOD!!!

i'm not going into details of my expedition in this post cause i don't remember a lot of things and i don't have the pics with me..so i'm gonna introduce the group without photos.

i'll just roughly tell u guys what we did..we walked from Catholic High School to EON factory in SHAH ALAM then proceeded to the "famous" Masjid Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Shah also in SHAH ALAM before making our way to KLANG police station before taking a train to PORT KLANG police station..the whole journey is roughly 46KM and it took us 12 hours to reach our 1st day's desitination plus breaks..finally we took a ferry to PULAU KETAM which is our final destination..

first we have is Mr. Tan Wei Kuang(the indian) who is the leader of the expedition..from now on i'm really going to call him "The Flash"..he walk damn chee bye fast..forever in the front of the pack..

then we have Looi Seng Tzer..Map drawer..always at the end of the pack slowly drawing the maps..a lot of times we had to stop and wait for him..

3rd is Ng Shea Shin..the bearing dude..i think he injured his leg but he too is a MAN so he continued walking with us..i think his injury is not too bad cause he walked pretty normally..

we got Benjamin Woo who is pathetic..you would never believe he only slept 2 hours before the trip..the whole way he was the most energetic of all and couldn't stop saying "EH 昨天你有看TORRES SCORE GOAL MAH??!!" when everyone is half dead he still can run..damn energetic but still cannoot beat Wei Kaung..

we got Chua Li Shawn(the chinese) who can talk crap without effort..

we got EMO man Lim Lik Sin..the whole way he couldn't stop looking emo and just be alone starring at nowhere..

the HALF MAN Tan Eu Chin cause i totally had no idea he was so so so so so pussified until 2 days ago..he walked the 46km but i still don't rate him as a MAN..

we have Ooi Tuan Hann who freaking brought along his SISTER"s PANTIES in his bag..talk about him being soper yellow..this takes things to a whole new level..he can't survive without female's under garment..he said he accidentally took it but i doubt his honesty..

the others in the group are Tan Yoong Kien,Chong Kiat Yang,Edmund Tan,Damian Khaw,Sek Kin Men,Lok Ken Wei,Yong Keenen and Benedict Hew..

here are some quotes of the expedition:-
EH 昨天你有看TORRES SCORE GOAL MAH??!! - Benjamin Woo

"Attention, Please Disperse Immediatelly or We Disperse With Force" by some Malay police dude to so call "Scare" us which i changed to "Attention, PLEASE FUCK OFF OR BE FUCKED!!"

Quote of the expedition:-

We've been through SUN,
We've been through RAIN,
We've walked 46KM,
We've been bitten by MA trained MOSQUITOES,
We've slept in a JUNK,
We Have Balls of STEEL,
WE ARE MEN!!!

by 9th PJ Scout Troop..

EXPEDITION!!

tomorrow i'll be on my way to an expedition to pulau ketam..crabby island..

it's a 40km expedition..we'll be walking to klang..WALKING..a total of 17 of us together jalan-jalan..it's a 2 days 1 night trip so we'll be staying over at the port klang police station..maybe they'll let us sleep in the lock-up..i'll be back on thrusday..

i'll post up the pics when i blog about the expedition..it's going to be fun fun fun fun fun..

1u

i went to 1u yesterday and today..watched 2 movies which i don't think it's worth going to cenima to watch and got last..twice in the F1 simulator game..can't blame me for the 2nd time..

yesterday went there with ah neh and shue ze..met up with mark and his friend(sorry dude don't know how to spell your name), cheryl and christine..from there we watched Vantage Point..all i have to say is the 1st half an hour plus plus is pure bullshit..1st they started with person A punya point of view then rewind everything change to person B and so on..they had like 5 or 6 rewinds before the movie went on without interruptions..the car chasing scene was totally unbelievable..my advice to you people is to buy a Opel mini car which can withstand excessive banging and you won't even scratch yourself..even after being sandwiched between a really big truck and a solid wall..overall the plot is not bad and the terrorist is damn freaking pro..after that went and bought presents and a new wallet for myself..played the F1 simulator game..got last..i couldn't reach the freaking paddles so i struggled the whole way through..

today went for futsal in the morning then watched Jumper with ah neh,shea shin,li shawn and wei kuang..we had lunch in Vietnam Kitchen which is quite good actually..the movie itself kinda disappointing i guess..tak de hardcore action..after that went and play the freaking F1 simulator again..i was running damn well..12th place until towards the end of the race some chee bye AI car crash into me then i last place..damn pissed off..just so u guys know top 5 finish can get free ticket to the F1 race in sepang.. the other challenge is to carry a F1 wheel for 2 minutes..that one can win you Grand Stand tickets..it's damn heavy..shea shin tried it..he say they cheat him hahaha..

that's about it lah..going for expedition to Pulau Ketam with Scouts on Wednesday and Thursday..should be a lot of fun..

weekend

i felt like a saint today..can i use the word saint??what's the meaning of "saint" anyway..

the fact is i feel good about myself today..no, not because of Sejarah paper (i did rather OK only.. i won't say it's a good paper but it won't be the worst)..it's because i belanja-ed my friends(Cheryl,Ee Lynn,Brian,Shue Ze,Tian Yuan) lunch..at Kenny Rodgers..i made them happy by not paying and getting free lunch..just one thing though..the drinks and taxes in such restaurant really kills man..sohai service tax..their freaking service not good at all and yet i still need to pay 10% extra..kiss my arse man..

i've already planned out my whole weekend..today and tomorrow will be Physcis and Chemistry day..if there's time i'll squeeze in Add Maths too..i'll need to do all the studying i can cause i don't wanna fail in any exams this term..though Chem and Add Maths will be excusable since i really really suck at both..but still..aiming for NO RED MARKS!! while you smart arses plan to get As i plan to get BLUE/BLACK marks for my papers..low target kan..

for now i'll be resting..

DIE DIE DIE!!

i'm updating for the sake updating my decaying blog..

nothing much has happened the past week..everyone's blog seemed to have at least one emo post for the past week..victor himself having 3 i think..what's with ppl and emoness now??

well exams are starting tomorrow and i just finished revising bio..i won't say it's the shittiest thing to study cause sejarah is just as bad..but i don't think i can score for this term cause i don't have the exam mentality..guess i'm born to suck in exams..come to think of it i sucked badly in every term of exams in CHS..how to take SPM??

i'm thinking of driving i'm thinking of prom and yet i haven't gave any thought about SPM until now..it's like the most important exam of our young career and somehow up till now i still don't give a shit about it..am i really that lazy in terms of study for my future??i dunno..

i'm going to be rather busy during the holidays..1st i'm going expedition with my scout pals then i have some night event before having to be one of the judges for the IU day audition..i seriously hope there's some good act waiting to be judged because i don't wanna waste my morning looking at useless and wannabe-like acts..

during the holiday i'm gonna buy
* a belt
* a wallet
because i need another belt and i want a mature looking black leather wallet..i'm fast becoming a man so i need a man wallet hahahaha..Wild Channel and Tropicana Life is totally OUT!! i wanna get those mature looking wallet..perhaps Extreme, Quicksilver or those really man type ones..just pure black leather..

that'll be the end..good luck for your exams..study hard and don't be lazy..